E.N.E.R.G.Y

Salam Maal Hijr

2011-11-27T13:28:00.005+08:00

Assalamualaikum to all Muslim and citizen of this universe. Wish all of you Awal Muharram & Happy New Year! Alhamdullillah praise to Allah for giving another year for me to transform my own self to become a better Muslim. I wanted to say a good one but let just start with..better.

To start a new resolution on this Noble day, I guess I have to create new KPIs ..no? or maybe the least I could do is to improve the last KPIs that I set myself last year. Hihi. So I would know the variances & the causes of the variance and what action to take in order to meet the gap right?

On this new year, what I want to do is to get my focus at the right track. Which is onto my career. To deliver a good performance on every assigned tasks, to meet the deadlines, to be disciplined, positive curve of consistency, meet boss' requirements, meet my own target, be firm & vocal of what I believed in and fast-learning practitioner.

Career done. Now with health. I'll make sure my system is feed with an adequate amount of water, bring umbrella to avoid rain-shower, exercise regularly (Consider done), try to sleep more than 5 hours and less caffeine, this is the hardest thing I hardly giving up on. Honestly!

Security Part: No more playing phone while walking, be more alert, practice in don't believe in stranger and discard world peace no bandits motto while walking to the office & going back home as well, no more eating in the LRT ( malas to create etiquette part), no more crossing the road whenever I think possible (even 100 meters uncertain speed of car also I think sempat), Recite ayat Kursi during the journey and whenever possible, pepper spray, body splash would do kot. (To be add more later on)..Thinking in progress

MOST IMPORTANT THINGS IN LIFE IS responsibilities: where do I start huh? (head scratching) oh okay.. Religious part is not meant to be shared. That would be instilled from within, from me to my Creator. I just pray for my strength to avoid fear, to avoid feeling lost, to avoid myself from giving up without even try, to avoid myself to unnecessary cries, to avoid me from sighing, to keep my feet on the ground, to remember from what I made of, to where I will come back, for what purposes Allah created me, on what purposes I am still alive, to be a good sister to my brother, cousin and everyone. Help those in need, never expect more but aim high, love who hates, continue loving who loves, accept Allah's Qada and Qadar, forgive but never forget, be responsible, be sincere, set my nawaitu in a good manner, start doing follow-ups don't stop half way, etc. I would like to indicate more but I will bore the heck out of you guys.

Life is not about being happy all the time, it is beyond than that. That's why we learn fear, sadness, worries, anxious, nervous, feelingless and many more. Whatever journey Allah put us through, just don't forget to say subhannallah, alhamdullillah. Allah create us for several purposes. One of them to is to be a khalifah. I may not be perfect Muslim/slave but I believe in improving myself to be a better one. Remind me if I "leka"

Thank you for listening confidante(s)!

That is just beautiful miracle isn't it?

iloveyouAllah, Penawar Bercahaya (Syifa'Unnur)

Never Back Down

2011-11-18T14:06:00.000+08:00

OMG! I know2..I am such a terrible blog-writer. I can't believe it's almost 2 months since the last time I post the previous entry. Maybe, now I prefer to talk in a real world rather than here. Of course, lack of ideas and time barrier play the vital role in disabling me to write too.. whatever it is..here I am again

We almost meet Xmas again that finally leads us to New year. The last blog entry about new year (2011) was, I told to Year 2011 to be nice to me. But it happened the other way around, TOTALLY. . This year, to sum it all up.. I would say the most challenging of all years. Lost someones, gain some new ones. Know some. Forget or try to forget some, been robbed by snatch-theft, Went to an event, Celebrate Raya in A diff place compare to past years, I must say Allah really put me into these tests to groom me to be a better human. So yeah, It was challenging. Changed my career path. Made some big decisions. Missed some opportunities.

To see all of these from helicopter view.. I conclude some lessons I've learned. Which are to be strong, adapt-wisely to situation, be rational when instinct isn't working, stop being judgmental towards people/decisions/matters arise etc. be confident with yourself but not cocky, always ask why (curiosity helps doesn't it?) , be grateful, Look at every problem in a positive side (need to be more analytical on this one), but most of all, hold on to your faith and belief and keep em. Never blame other people of your failure. Try the hardest to make thing at its most productive level it could get.

To be frank, there were like thousand times I feel like quitting everything. But one way for me to get back up is using my inner voice and talk to myself about my value and what/who I am fighting for. I motivate myself by using my own mother as a role model. If she could endure this alone, why can't I?

Life is like a long-term exams. Problems are like your test paper. If you pass the test, Proceed. If you don't and give up.. You'll lose and stuck. So act/answer correctly or give a satisfactory answers to all the paper, think wise before you think twice.

Thank you for your kind attention.

Warm Regards,

Syifa Aziz

Thought of the day: I need to improve my discipline in writing this blog :)

Surviving is getting 10 times harder.. Everyday :)

2011-09-25T12:07:00.000+08:00

My Repetitive Wonderful Routine

Assalammualaikum,

It's been awhile since I pour my heart out, guess Twitter has supersede E.N.E.R.G.Y.

The truth is, I've been away from my PC for months. Updating my social networking stuffs with mere phone doesn't give me any satisfaction. (The hell Syifa? hi hi)

Talking about updates, I've changed my work already, it's been two months and things seem quite alright. Try to catch up a bit. Even the starting wasn't so smooth but The Almighty helped me through it with style and tawakal. oh ya, do you guys know anything about Corporate Planning & Development? wonder if you guys could share with me some info (maybe exchange ideas would sounds greater)

I'm still trying to put the broken puzzles together, but of course with one important missing piece. Everyday is an emotionally challenge to me. Only Allah knows how hectic inside and within me. In searching of serenity, I must first REDHA and accept. Maybe only mind which controls relevance accepts. The heart that holds so much memories and unconditional love denies.

Pepatah Melayu: Syurga di bawah telapak kaki ibu.

So, I didn't really lost my world.. I've lost my heaven.

Love your mom, show it to her, put her first, talk to her nicely, kiss her forehead and say I love you.

and practice it...daily :)

P.s- I am currently listening to Fly by Nicky Minaj and my Fav Rihanna! try to chill with the song ok. Love the lyrics!

Your Nothing but the truth

Projek Kumbuhan

2011-06-24T13:48:00.002+08:00

Dear Abang,

Harini adek akan beli ubat anti-sumbat dan dawai untuk menjayakan projek de-sumbat toilet kita. Demi menyelamatkan toilet induk tersebut perkhidmatan abang juga diperlukan. Selain itu bahan-bahan lain yang diperlukan adalah sarung tangan dan pewangi sembur. Perlaksanaan projek ini mungkin akan memakan masa selama 2 hingga 3 jam. Your commitment is highly appreciated.

See you tonight!

Warm Regards,
Your Sister :)

Less Than Love

2011-06-18T21:58:00.000+08:00

Dear Me,

Days pass by so quickly, sometimes so slowly..Taking turn and mould a pattern that I couldn't keep up. Sometimes I could. When everything follows my way. Standing alone, fighting alone, I am struggling to breathe, just to ensure I am alive and still alive. In the morning, I wake up..Full of routine or maybe deliberately fulfill the routine. Another day, another race, I am tired.. I am. But Alhamdullillah, I am healing everyday. I've gained strength each days. I have no choice, I realize I have no choice but to be strong. So here I am, I MUST stand up and clear my wounds. Leave the scars open, It hurts but it heals. I realize there is no one I could and should rely on in healing myself. Cuz real happiness and full recovery is up to me. I choose not to depend on others.

Ma,

When I see my hands, I see your hands used to hold 'em and said those words you always said to me..

When I see myself in the mirror, I still see you..behind me wearing your fav kaftan, huhu

Ma, When I am home.. There was you sitting on the couch watching Star movies and welcoming me,

Ma, now my tears are more reserved than it used to be.. Less-flowing on the cheeks..but in my heart, still under observation :)

Ma, When I listen to Hilary Duff's song.. I would reminisce your dialogue saying "adek tak habis2 lagu budak montok nie"..and I'd say.."mammiii!" hehhehe and the conversation went on..and on

Ma, I just miss laughing with you.. hmm, my laugh with you is the most genuine laughter I've ever had..who said I already moved on. I am still here. and always be. Moving on is only for broken-hearted man.

Every time I miss you, my body will turn cold and my eyes will shine (yes, with tears that I hold). Cuz inside, I am fighting with emotion. Wow.. Hard to explain how does it feel on that time. My tired heart sometimes just can't take it anymore. But I need to survive. So I wipe my tears and start over my day with smile. But inside all I am doing is still live with my bestest memories..HER.

Still Counting x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x

Disease or just normal

2011-05-30T10:53:00.000+08:00

Omg! I am so freaking tired..I wanna go back and sleep the whole day! I feel like my immunity is getting getting GETTING low.. GET it? I x kisah demam tp jangan lesu. sumpah kerja x jalan. Haiih.. Doctor help me solve this problem pleaseee :(

p.s- stole my heart :)

Fragile everyday

2011-05-12T12:57:00.000+08:00

Title yang sangat meng-controversy-kan. Sorry for mixing both bahasa(s) English and BM plus dgn bad grammar..hee! nak buat mcm mana today I ter- monologue in both languages. Btw nak kongsi cerita before off to work..oh..Today I kerja malam..hurmm soo.. ada masa utk crapping kat sini. So lama already tak tulis on this tiny whitey lil space. Sorry for being not having any ideas and busy with work :) try to cope with life now.

Actually today I x ada anything to pour pun.. just kesian this blog kena abandon lama sgt. Just to update some status here, I am currently pretty busy with managing life majorly emotion and mind. Everyday is a new challenge for me.. A challenge at work..itu normal.. lagi satu a challenge for me to jadi stronger and stronger. Kadang2 I pikiaq, I must be crazy.. tiba2 dlm train otw to work pun boleh nangis (nak2 keja pagi) pastu mula jadi ngade2 update status kat twitter cakap *life would be easier if you were here* pastu kan kalau ada gossip hangat..tak tahu dah nak msg siapa ,,bila balik rumah konfius pule nak sambung gossip tu ngan siapa..sbb semua nya paling best kongsi ngn mama. SHE is the only one yg I can trust with my life.. Someone will see me through.. not just the surface.Ye la kang kongsi ngn abg kang kne pang ngn dia.. org nak main game kita sebok2 hot2 gossip pule..mmg mendapat la

Kan.. ma, adik macam dah besar...depan orang adek suka berlagak macho tp kalau adek dok rumah kalau x nangis setitik mesti tak sah. ma, hari2 adek cakap ngn mama dlm hati..if lapar adek msti tercakap.."ma lapa la ma".. kalau letih kerja lari sana sini adek termonolog.."maamaa, nak balik rumahh, letihnyee"..pastu kan ma if pms dtg adek suke marah-marah.. tp dlm byk2 org/makanan/cappucino..mama punye pujukan paling mujarab.

Hurgh..susah beb nak get over something mcm nie.. Love ngn boyfie kita pun x kan meroyan mcm nie punya. I dunno whenn laahhh I can be strong nie.. ni angin tiup skirt labuh kita ngn rambut pun..boleh ternangis..fragile betul tahap babun! Ma, even ni mcm jiwang kan.. I really2 do miss your touch and voice..serta cara mama marah kalau adek degil, kluar malam balik before 10 pm, ckp kasar ngn abg, perli adek kalau mandi lambat.. sume sume lah.. Cuz Im so lost now.. now nak kuar mlm ke clubbing pun takde org sekat..tp ma, Im not happy life mcm nie.. adek suke mama punye sekatan and kemerajukkan. Itu yg buat life makin bereerti.

Adek rasa sunyi sgt..even semua cakap2 ngn adek and gurau2.. deep down inside,, adek punye hati nie pecah terburai. Punyi lah empty ma.. Adek boleh tibe2 tak tahu nape nak kena kerja, nak ada cita2, nak kena kahwin..sbb dlu adek buat nie sume nak jaga mama..nak make u proud nak mama tahu mama besarkan adek sorang2 tak rugi.. adoyai.. now..dah jadi macam penantian yang x berakhir je ma..tunggu mama sbb adek tahu.. Dah diam.. Tuhan marah kang

Tapi adek ingat mama cakap dulu2.."jgn cakap macam org x beragama.. Dosa nanti, so buat apa2 kerana Allah".. takut makin hari makin jauh dari agama..harap2 tak mcm tu kalau x sia2 je duit mama anta adek gi sekola agama dulu.. so Syifa Unnur..jangan nak ngade2 emo lama2.. life is a race.

Even adek tak tahu macam mana future adek..Adek harap semuanya dah di design perfectly. Humm..cume mcm adek kata tadi ma, EMPTYnyee hidup nie mama takde. even I try to compensate ngn benda lain to distract me,,ttp x berjaya. Ma, I will always remember how you and me used to lie down on the bed.. u taught me how to do my first signature. I was 9.. I thought every signature telah ditetapkan sejak kecil. Now I know kenapa mama gelak2 masa tu. I was so naive.. and you coloured me with your love. I love you my WORLD :)

p.s- here I am renew my promise.. to fight with negativities and to feel weak whenever I think about mama, instead when I think of mama..I should be a spiritful girl and strong! Thats how u continue surviving!Go me! Urrghh...Mamamaaa!!!

SIMM UOY OS HCUM

2011-04-08T16:25:00.002+08:00

Meroyan di petang hari dan sebelum pergi kerja *larrriii~*as usual aktiviti rasmi setiap hari adalah online dan terpanggil untuk mencoret di ruang sesawang ini. Today I don't wanna be deep or what, just go straight to the point.. - . - hurmm.. hurmm.. immaturity masih strong di dalam diri memaksa diri ku menjadi lemah kembali.. Dear mama/mamito/meehun/madam! again..today I miss you..in fact everyday.. urghh! When u miss someone endlessly like this..U feel like...shouting cuz sumpah it hurts so bad .How I wish I became emotionless..so I could defeat this thing..Oh no no no..emosi terluke serta minda yang diharapkan untuk memotivasikan diri.. one question..sampai bila?.......tet

Missing u mama,
The crying immature one!
SHIP-PHA

Now tak ada dah pengkritik setia memarahi saya kerana upload gambar bukan2..Mom, no one has taken over your place.. No means never :)

P.S-sorry to annoy readers with repetitive subject of posting.. *waving poisely*

SOMETHING THAT JUST NOT WRITTEN IN THE SKY

2011-03-29T02:15:00.004+08:00

Tomorrow I will work in the morning. Hope the day will be nice and smooth as it could get.

::Dealing with customer or to be exact P.EOPLE is not as easy as I thought. Some strangers come towards you and yell.. because of something you never did.. or sometimes you don't even know the answer or how to solve the matter..beyond your expertise, smile all along.. forget your temper.. please them with good reasonable appropriately arranged words, hye! welcome to customer services.

When you get sick or at least having a little flu, you will pray that you heal faster, not to entertain the feeling of being sick..why oh why? cuz you can't never sneeze while talking to customer or attending them with watery eyes/nose and even nosey voice is not allowed. You have to be presentable, efficient, proactive and always wear your smile :) now that sounds so fairytale! but it's so true..forget your tiredness.. Your physical and mental have to be fit! part of your job! and plus, you always have to know what to say.. of course...APPROPRIATELY!

Their problems are your jobs! When they forgot to collect things from the bus, defected toilet, passenger miss the bus, bus service fail to meet customer's satisfaction, routing, public transport, parking, elevator, student comes for research..omg! sounds so much for (JUST) external customer...what about internal ones? samee!always ensure they got the equality of services and have to please them all the time.. NO no don't get me wrong, this isn't about nagging of my job or whatt... Like can't you see..How blessing this job is? assisting OKU to buy bus ticket, entertain senior citizen (from simple chatting until assisting them to board the bus), be the map of lost foreigner, help a pregnant woman to bring their heavy bags..like...

OMAIGOSH! I am so happy Ya Almighty!I work and I get tired but I feel blessed and happy..just by receiving a simple thanks from customer..superb satisfaction! Entertaining big bosses, Press and media, foreigner, mental disorder guy (yes, i did), Government, business man, senior citizen, MALAYSIAN, pregnant woman and many many more..trust me! it helps me develop myself beautifully..even my BP is getting higher..but..I'm chill with that :) In one day, I would've met like ..EVERYONE!

Service industry is undoubtedly tiring, your weekends are our weekdays..when you're sleeping, we just started our shift, When you are enjoying the amenities in the building, we are busy to keep the facilities in a good condition.. But everyday is a reward to us.. Cuz your satisfaction is our achievement. Thanks to the crowd for being my remedy! ::

Tan Sri Hamid said, work is your ibadah. I agree!

Bitterheart or sweetheart?

2011-03-16T17:54:00.002+08:00

Coincidently met my long lost friend yesterday..Wasn't that "lost" anyway, it just that we haven't seen each other for quite some time. Ironically I was working, but gladly almost reach its time to go back. So, I spent some time talking to her but working at the same time. Can u imagine how? please...just don't ^^ Talking to her made me swim back to the past. Because she is..someone from my past.. My heart was pumping with anger, I can't believe what I heard from her. I won't expose what conversation we've had but just to share some point of view of life, sometimes.. Don't bother about whatever others feel towards your action, cuz sometimes when we are too busy thinking about others' happiness,eventually we always realized the fact that we cannot please the whole world! There's no use torturing your heart and mind for some people who doesn't know whether you have ones by treating you like a robot, and don't take you seriously. Make life even simpler & don't complicate things, make it stable by what you received, you'd give back. Ok darling? take out the person/things in your life that contribute to your imperfections, let your life goes with your rhythm. By how u want it to be alright.. Life is so hard at 1st, especially when you just crashed into pieces after a big breakdown or something similar, but once you completed the healing process, you'll gain both.. happiness and strength!..& The next time you see misery, you don't sweat a lot like you used to.. :)

Yours Truly,

Voice within

Getting used to ..YOU!

2011-02-21T14:49:00.002+08:00

Today is my off-day. NO no no, I'm not going out or loitering around even my hot-blood rebelling to do so, so so much but there are a lot of other MAJOR things that need to be settled..especially bills, bills and bills. Everytime I check the post box, my hands will be shaking cuz I am afraid I might not be able to settle all the bills on time. What if they cut the electricity and water supply. Or take away my astro! and and who's gonna remind me to pay PTPTN. Working on shift-based schedule makes it hard for me to steal time to get all these 'mess-head' done. I don't have any idea how my mom did all of these to-do-list!(s) My dad passed away when I was like 7 months..So practically she had been single parent since like forever. I swear! I don't know where she gained that strength! Now what I gotta do..is getting used to this and don't over-used em..or else, I shall pay more..NNOOO! this story has exclude groceries, food supply, transport fares and pocket money and yes..ETC .Mom, this is wow! :) teehee

What doesn't kill makes you stronger..and u know what bills?? U can't kill me! bwek!

Regards,

THE CAPITAL SYIFA'

Perit

2011-02-13T07:09:00.000+08:00

Mama adik nangis lagi hari ini. Adik x dpt tahan kesedihan when I am at home alone. Adik teringatkan mama. Tgk susunan dalam rumah ni buat adik teringat how rajin you were bila kemas rumah. Bila adik balik je mesti mama tanya pendapat adik kan ma? Mama adik teringatkan masa adik teman mama gi Medical Centre dekat GMC haritu. Bulan lepas kan mama. Mama batuk2 banyak sgt and mengadu kat adik. Tapi at the same time mama boleh lagi wat lawak and gelak2. Sorry mama sbb adik salu moody kat mama. Jahat adik ni. Tapi mama tahu tak mama dalam dunia ni mama adalah buah hati adik, mamalah my princess, mamalah wanita paling hot sekali. Mama je yang dapat buat hati perit adik sembuh. mama is my syifa'. mama sorry sgt masa mama sakit haritu adik x dpt buat apa2 sembuhkan mama. walaupun nama adik syifa'. sorry mama. sorry mama. Ma, adik x sempat nak blikan jam untuk mama. adik pernah hilangkan 2 jam mama. tapi mama x marah pun ma. Mama ingat tak masa mama teman adik bli air kat coffee box, mama tunggu dlm kereta. Tapi masa tu coffee box tu lambat bagi air adik, mama worry sampai mama keluar cari adik and mama lupa lock kereta. Mama tanya org kat 7 eleven sume..mama tahu tak sampai sekarang adik terharu sgt. Mama salu panggil adik baby girl mama tapi sekarang mama buat adik miss panggilan tu mama. sbb skarang x ada org pun panggil adik camtu or panggil adik ni atek. Mama adik betul2 rindu mama..mama dtgla dalam mimpi adik salu..please ma..nak dgr suara mama

every tears belong to you

2011-02-08T12:57:00.001+08:00

Part of my routine, everyday, is to keep myself preoccupied.. make myself busy and stuff my days with friends and loved ones because by knowing this term '‎"Our character is what we do when no one is looking." I might collapsed and breakdown. I am thankful to have such a supportive and understanding people around me which never fail to keep me 'alive'. At this time, I can't never be on my own..Myself is the worse companion ever.

I never put high hope on something only for one thing, which was to see my mom woke up and to hear her voice again..that time. But I never question Allah's fate to take HIS creation,it is part of life's cycle. Redha was the only way to accept death, by pronouncing prayers ushering my princess to the other world aka Alam Barzakh. I obey Ya Almighty.

Even until today, I still feel that she was around me and waited for me to update my journey to work. For me texting her everytime I reached office,on my way home from work til i reach home, going out, everytime I felt sad, when I miss her, gossips and many other things! could someone tell me how can I hear her voice again cuz I don't want to forget her wonder-extraordinary voice when she called me.. could someone hugged me like she did..could someone comfort me like she did and could someone amused me like her jokes, could someone?

Everyday, continuously,I miss her.It hurts so bad. what would you feel when your home is the last place you wanted to be? home used to be like heaven but now it just reminds you of everything you deny to remember. Ya Allah cekalkan hambaMu ini, make me immune to this, help me through this, blessed me everyday by blessing her soul.. put her in YOUR lists of PARA SHUHADA'. Same goes to my father. I love them both and to my brother.. lets continue this until we meet mama and papa again. I love you so much. Take care and be safe alright.

Sincerely,
Syifaaziz

Hajjah Rohana @ Rohanah Ibrahim, She's a super duper mom!

2011-01-17T06:23:00.000+08:00

As I walked through the pavement at level 3..HKL, I could hear my stepping shoes taking turn to sound.. But my mind, elsewhere. I couldn't bear the news I heard at 7 something PM on Thursday..I've lost myself on that day, When she lied down-unmoved, stiff with pale face on the patients' bed. She had 30 mins to live, Thats what doc predicted at that time, half-sanity I was trying to strenghten myself, tried to ignore..Out of my control, I cried and whispered KALIMAH SYAHADAH in her ears. Together with my brother, we jogged slowly along with doc and crew to level 3..ICU. at ICU, we waited for hours, finally door opened for us with welcoming ceremony done by the doc incharged. Doc told us the chronology and all, Frustrated but grateful Alhamdullillah, Allah still let her live even now she couldn't move, couldn't talk yet eat, couldn't do anything but I'm happy that everyday she gives a LITTLE progress. Even A LITTLE but I know someday, she'll be back to be our mom again. To whoever read this please contribute Yassin to her, Puan Rohana Ibrahim. Your cooperation has indeed a good return..from Allah. I love you mom, as simple as that!You're awesome, cuz you tought me to be strong and positive like you!

Is love smart?

2011-01-08T15:06:00.002+08:00

Dear Youaretheonlyexception,
[ ]It is when, all your senses get so excited..

[ ]It is maybe when your mood is fixed by itself when you see him.. and yeah without the assistance of chocs of course

[ ] He makes you feel so alive.. yet dead..makes u feel like you are the most beautiful lady on earth..and makes you think you are the most intelligent nerd in the universe..no?

[ ] When you pronounce those 3 sacred little words..and you never think of what circumstances you'd have to face..because it never matters

[ ]When you miss him, you wish he would just appear in front of you..and still.. never stop hoping

[ ]Love is sweet but most of the time..challenging.. adventurous!

[ ]Makes you so happy, makes you so so sad.. so?

[ ]Love is beneficial?- taking risks, enhance confidence level, learn to be patient, give and take, gratitude,positivity etc.. love is smart? or falling in love is actually smart..?

Now think the other way around....

Love, if you have it..you don't need anything else

and if you don't have it..it doesn't matter much what else you have

Thatsallbyefornow!

THE TWENTY-11

2010-12-31T14:29:00.001+08:00

DEAR TWENTY-11,

Your presence in my life tomorrow will be remembered as a new beginning of something new,

Why not if you just make me happy and being nice to me by giving me less probs,

And pleaseeee help me by erasing some hurtful memories,

But yeah, do keep some as I cannot move on with life without em....

Welcome 20-eleven ,bye-bye twenty-10!

Regards,

Syifa,

So-Last-Year

COOLER THAN ME

2010-12-18T22:15:00.001+08:00

Ok! Nicole Sherzinger memang nampak so deliciously tempting dlm music video heartbeat with Enrique Iglesias jejaka bunga!but thats not the point..the point is TBS will be operating this jan! Alhamdullillah..after 2months of training.. finally... my boss once said to me, bila terminal ni dah start operate..syifa u akan balik 10 mlm mcm tu, jgn harap balik tepat pukul 6 ya..nak2 ia akan beroperasi 24 hours. awl2 terkejut cuak semua ade, but actually I found it very challenging!so I gotta embrace it with style!experience bahh.. oh oh nak mengadu, I naik public tranport utk ke opis, I geram betul bila org tak pandai main lane kiri and kanan (STRICTLY FOR PEDESTRIAN ONLY)..especially escalator. I nak kejar masa ok! so bila dekat eskalator, for those yang tak join marathon pagi tolong2 la ke kiri.. bagi la lane kanan tu lancar. so sempat lah I makan karipap besar RM 1 n pekena nescafe tarik kat opis. Ni x pasal2 I lambat sebab ada beberapa makhluk2 Allah yg suka berjalan pesen kura2 and block jalan.. please..I jenis memahami, pagi2 memang otak kita slow..so jalan pun ala2 catwalk..but utk opis yang jauh mcm kami.. kteorg dah kena maximize our speed ok! so peringatan utk semua termasuk I!ikutlah peraturan pejalan kaki..yang nak jalan lambat bagi lah jalan kepada pejalan cepat. sekian :) world peace!

Bila Esok Datang Lagi...

2010-12-15T00:26:00.000+08:00

Today is the second day.. I'm afraid I might collapsed. Will I be able to hold my strength and keep my perseverance to endure this journey or should I just declare and put my hands up saying this is ain't what I'm looking for, ain't my calling.

Intermission: Ini lah fav saye kat opis! perisa original and vanilla are the bomb!

Blaming other people or being irresponsible are becoming a trend now. Whatever it is, I just hate the trendsetter!

Life as in metaphore

2010-12-08T10:22:00.001+08:00

"If life is only a riddle...we will find the answer once we solve the riddle
Once we solve the riddle, we'll get the answer and complete the riddle
The Search stops, We'll find another riddle to solve.."

Assumption:

*riddle is our normal daily probs

life is a riddle*

Something's wrong here.. because in reality, We don't even know when we can find the solution of our problem though..and the search is always continue and continue.. We don't find a riddle to solve, instead the riddle comes to us for us to solve.. Get it? urrgh..sorry another crap for another boring wednesday :)

Just to update something: I just bought a cool flip flop and it's pink ! tu jer..toodles~

Ade lagi2, I think our economics' condition is not stable..mcm meng-heading ke arah inflation..so to all, take this precaution.. berbelanjalah sehemah-hemahnya ok! maybe perang dingin antara Both Korea telah mule memberi effect kpd dunia..tet! betul2 toodles~

Buhbyes!

Hello Everything!

2010-11-25T19:50:00.003+08:00

cuz baby you're a firework, come on let your colours burst!

I stole this from katy perry's new song, firework. It really captivates my attention as it has a quite big impact in motivating me. So whenever u feel inferior, demotivated, or any other negativities remember these words and try to comprehend while exploring the colours in you ok? oh! btw actually this is not the spotlight of this post, my real intention is to give a short summary about my life/feeling/view in recent. To be honest, I'll say I might miss a lot of updates here as I've been away for so long. Recently, I've been through a few transformation. Some are hurtful, some are...what I can call as Blessing from God. To be frank, I'll be thankful to God if I made mistakes or vice versa, cuz whatever result may I face is a life lesson that will be my map in the future apart from making me stronger and much much wiser. I just wish I could stay positive like this forever or maybe when forever is over, I just wish I would continue.......

Sometimes being a decision maker is not hard, but most of the time.. yes! especially when it has too many good choices to offer. ARE YOU REGRET? this is not even a question kan? So what is it..? to me it is just a confirmation.

before I end this..maybe you can start to make the crowd go oh oh :)

toodios!

GRINS

2010-11-05T17:45:00.002+08:00

It's been awhile since I keep my mouth/head/hands shut off this blog. I still love telling stories but lately I must admit I've been such a bad writer. Due to the busy schedule of working and the extension of sleeping hours. So, I spend less hour in cyber world. So here I am again to give some updates about what happen recently in my life.

-I am so happy with work. I've got a lot of awesome/caring/happy-go-lucky friends. even I've lost one (in working place) but sue darling, ure always have a place in my heart :) goodluck in ur future undertakings

-as for other things, I can't elaborate here. It's too hard to explain. I don't like to play around. So take me seriously *tiba2 kan*

-Seriously need to do the S.O.P cepat2 as the due date is just around the corner. I love thinking but to do the typing, I need a typewriter! as a pioneer for the terminal we have to come up with our own fresh ideas. excites me!

-I hope Allah will grant my wishes and smoothen my journey. I'm so sorry for being such a bad slave. I know I am not good enough to ask anything from U.

-I miss my mom! And I got a news for her!

thats all folks! have a nice day!

my journey is not written to be yours

2010-10-24T10:07:00.000+08:00

Something is missing. I just hope that I ll get my spirit back. Life is complicated at this time. But I'm sure and I know I'll get through.

yours sincerely,
Syifa Aziz

HEELS WITH ME!

2010-10-05T22:23:00.002+08:00

Hye!update ringkas! Saye kini telah memasuki new phase of my life atau lebih tepat lagi, telah memasuki tempoh pra-matang dlm hidup saye. Alhamdullillah, After completing my degree in International Economics for 3 years in UKM I finally got appointed as a customer service Executive by Maju holdings. I will work at TBS (Terminal Bersepadu Selatan) at Bandar Tasik Selatan. InshaAllah this terminal will operate by this month. Yesterday was a pre-launch by minister, Datuk Seri Nazri Aziz and on the 17th if im not mistaken, PM himself will officiate the building! best gak tgk launching melibatkan org2 besar/VVIP nie. I learned about protocols walaupun x byk. Tapi yg bestnye, I am so proud of working with the 1st bus terminal yg high-tech mcm nie! terminal pun dah mcm airport dah! bayangkan ade 6 levels, 55 bus platforms, 1800 seats, 55 ruang tempat taxi for long distance and 1000 tempat parking! and yg paling saye suke, ia bersifat mesra OKU! so at ITT, OKU is provided with many facilities. Saye juge sbg seorg CS di situ is willing to serve my bestest best to give our customer a maximum satisfaction! So jgn panik if was-was nak beli ticket or tak jumpe toilet or many2 more masalah boleh dtg ke pejabat CS yg berada di tingkat 2. okie itu shj serba sedikit about ape yg berlaku recently. OH oh tadi kami telah diberi training mengenai bagaimana utk mengendalikan mesin jualan ticket di sana. Very friendly-user. ala2 facebook je! yg best part is, customer sendiri boleh buat tempahan ticket sendiri melalui kaunter ticket (POS-point of selling), kiosk ticket atau secara online. Banyak pilihan kan? ape2 pun do visit the terminal once it officially operate in order to explore and experience ape yg I merepek nie okie! ;P toodioos!

ITT-TBS

You'll Always Find A way Back Home!

2010-09-26T11:37:00.003+08:00

Alhamdullillah~ This week has been so great as it filled with some wonderful stories! Last week was totally cacat for me. Please refer to the previous entry for reference. It tells perfectly, ain't it? so let me begin my journey for this week.. Thoroughly! jump to the next point!

My big bro is in town! Even for awhile but I feel like it's not palely wasted like before.We spent so much time and do things together. I've joined a business with him and what can I say, it's profitable (for hardworking-practitioner) and educational. The best part is, anyone can join! even kau bukan anak Datuk Hamid! wow kan?
Then then.. I went for an interview with one company (Tibe2 P&C ape cer beb) and I got hired. Alhamdullillah~ I feel so grateful and excited! It's not easy to get a job. I was jobless for almost 5 months. kalau mengandung, perut pun dah besar. The best part is, the job suits me well.The keys are never give up and believe in the power of berdoa. Insha Allah..
This is sooo my personal fav! my bro and two of our friends (Wan & Tasya) go balik kampung with us. The journey took about 5-6 hours. We set up a rule that no one can sleep. To make it fair. So in order to kill the sleepiness, we turned on the music loudly and start singing. The cool part is, it was a CD that full of Bieber's song.Add-info: My hometown never puts me down, always outreach my expectations!
My bro and I went ziarah all over Kelantan. Best giler!I learned about Kelantanese a lot. Such as the culture and bahasa. Not to forget the food! The best part is We have the chance to meet our family back there. We haven't met for so long. like 5 years! It's like now, I have more hormones compare to the last trip!=D
I feel dihargai. They treat us very well. I miss my Kelantan-side family actually. I hope we can still bonding well even time has puts gap on us. Some of my cousins are really smart! they do make me proud.
Last but not least, I'm grateful to be given this opportunity by Allah Maha Besar. Great things happen for those who wait. I always comfort myself with this quote. I know it is actually can be true!
Seriously need to put off weight. Balik kampung2x -__-

Before signing off: I'm so excited yet nervous for this 1st oct. I hope everything will be fine and go smoothly. Please.. make me love my job.. please 100x. amin~ kissing off! DaaAaa~

The hatred day!

2010-09-18T10:08:00.000+08:00

Today is the H-day for me after mengalami kemarahan terkumpul sejak beberapa tahun/bulan/hari yang lepas! I seldom post entry yang melibatkan marah and marah. But today I don't care what'll happen saye nak post juge! Step yang pertame untuk meraikan perasaan marah/sugul ini ialah dengan mentaip besar-besar ape yang saye benci and jerit dalam hati sekuat-kuatnye sbb you don't wanna awake your brother yang letih. Nanti kena marah. So step one activated, I hate ORANG YANG PILIH BULU! they just put me on my nerve. If tumbuk orang is legal I will punch this kinda person straight on their plastic faces! I know it wouldn't hurt much cuz they come from special materials which is PLASTIC! Kadang-kadang orang macam ni bukan kacau orang lain pun but their annoyance tu sangat mengganggu! and menambah-nambah dosa manusia yang tak sekutu ngan diorg ni. THEY MAKE ME WANNA CURSE BAD WORDS.I mean REALLY-REALLY BAD! Tell this people what, people comes in various packages. Just accept them the way they are la! I mean like in-born traits. Kalau 'junkies' kau tak nak pun tak pe. I understand. Sila lah berubah. As a friend, terase wor bila lu cari gua when ade something je. Bila takde, balas wallpost susah. (memang nak bagi hint pun). kalau msg tu saye phm la awk kedekut ke abis cdt kan? To me you're not even a friend pun and not qualified to be one!I just hope these people'll change la. Your idiotic in Public Relations got my concern and sympathy. If you don't wanna change ke ape, tak pe thats hak asasi. Just don't appear in front of my eyes and disappear from my life okie. PEACE ^^

P.S-WHY LA DO U EVEN EXIST *Sigh*

AMAZING-RAYA

2010-09-13T00:17:00.004+08:00

Hye hye hello hello bye bye! finally I started bermonologue again. Jarang-jarang berlaku nowadays. Actually, It feels much much better to have this inner voice while writing/posting. To cut it short (tibe-tibe kan) actually today I have no story, admirations or tips to share just another pale post sempena Syawal a.k.a Lebaran. The last post I said I wasn't feel any excitement kan? but it happened the other way around now. I was surprised myself too! I quite enjoy this Raya even angpau makin in tenat situation. But I'm glad, that I'm still alive and be able to eat rendang, to share laughters with my mom and performed Eid-ul Fitr Prayers. I pick a random theme for raya tahun ini called 'Amazing-Raya'. Everything is going well and pretty til today :) I also managed to go beraya to several houses even though my aunty and uncle aren't here (they beraya di Mekah). I try to make a full use of this hols before I really2 start working. Oh dear, I can't imagine my life in KL as soon as I landed there. Being a grownup giving me so much ache in the head. Eventhough I have the power to control my life, but still.. power doesn't guarantee u a happiness.. well well!

"Ya Allah, smoothen my journey, protect and guide me to the right path. Amin"~ ok Raya ke 4! can't wait for u! =D

Love,

Syif

MISS(ING)

2010-09-09T02:07:00.000+08:00

I don't feel any excitement for the coming Hari Raya. What I know is, Syawal is coming

& Ramadhan is leaving.

I miss the old times,

Time just wont let me be 14 again

Thats why AAR says I wanna2 more than 10 times

2010-08-31T20:53:00.001+08:00

Gambar#1:Leica black gold yg oh-so-melting-me

(sekadar gambar hiasan)

You look into my eyes

I go out of my mind

I can't see anything

Cos this love's got me blind

I can't help myself

I can't break the spell

I can't even try

I'm in over my head

You got under skin

I got no strength at all

In the state that I'm in

And my knees are weak

And my mouth can't speak

Fell too far this time

p.s- I never liked any camera like i adore this one. I can't get rid of your angelic figure in my mind. ohh..so is this love? crazy. (mintak2 tak ade sape phm)

Make(it)over!

2010-08-28T19:14:00.008+08:00

Harini hari Sabtu, I thought it was Friday. I felt pelik when kereta banyak and all. I asked my mom, why eh? cuz it's saturday. Hurgh.. Perhaps I am too preoccupied thinking about Raya and beyond. Besides I ve been thinking of doing myself a makeover. I need to change my style for once. Maybe Some says, Fashion come and go but style stays forever . To be honest I've been stuck with myself since I was a kid. A girl with fringe. I am too scared to change my style. It's like my comfort zone. No kidding yaw! see picture below: kan?

Gambar #1:Syifa Jr.

Gambar #2: Syifa senior.

(damn. still wearing the same hair/style)

So after doing some findings, I found this! she's hot like a claypot! presenting cheryl cole

VERDICT-What i like about her is the make up. Fresh gile. she's using bronze colour just like beyonce does and her blusher , it's orangey and looks natural. Eye make up pun nice. Smokey eyes never goes out of trend! Fresh citrus style. i loike!Her hair is quite messy here but still gorgeous. She's so barbie-ish!

Bukan itu shj malah make up ini sesuai dgn baju raya saye! yes! strike 1!

*Selain itu saye juge suke make up kardashians, Heidi Klum, Tyra Banks, Hilary Duff, Leighton Meister and Paris Hilton. Go check em out alright! taadaa~ happy berpuasa yg ke 18! (=

What doesn't kill you makes you stronger?

2010-08-24T13:05:00.000+08:00

Today is the 12th of Ramadhan. I feel so suram and sugul. I pretend to maintain my mood. . But sadly, I can't deceive my own self. . I try not to think what I think, of course it's hard. . IT IS HARD to pretend I feel ok when I am totally out-of-ok. I hate it when I have to say goodbye when I don't even mean it. . I can't be this weak, I know I cannot layan all these feelings. . I have to be a fighter. . Now I'm fighting with all the gloominess inside, I know, win would be my highest possiblity. . I know I am already a winner :)

p.s- to perut, what do u want to eat today?

to muslim, selamat berbuka later on!

to him, I miss you already temon. . Finish 'em and make me proud alright! <3

*Everything*

DIARI HATIKU

2010-08-12T07:41:00.002+08:00

Salam and greetings to the world citizen! Happy thursday everyone! Tajuk kali ni adelah bersifat sedikit sarcasm. But not referring to any praticular person but myself. Actually currently I tak ada minat terbaru or experiencing something extra-ordinary so less story to share. And highlights pun da cerita smlm. Meaning, this blog akan back to format journal harian @ diari. How boring syifaaa~...yes! sorry but I do not care (campak botol byk2)

-DIARY ACTIVATED-

Today is our 2nd day of fasting. My sahur for today- nasi with ikan merah (maybe sambal kot) and some cekodoks for desserts. Drinks same as yesterday. My resolution for this month is I wanna be a better slave,daughter, Friend, Stranger @ any form I could be. So tell me whats yours..?

By the end of this month I will list down my achievement based on my resolution. I think it's helping in order to improve whats need to be fixed. what I really want to improve the most is to be more considerate towards others. It seems easy but its hard to be executed. 2ndly, I wanna be more matured. I can't never measure my maturity level but one of the ways to scale it is by my doings (the way I think, the way I react to something and how I solve my probs).

Every people should have at least one resolution. or kita panggil goal. So we know what to do in order to reach our mission in life. Mission is important because it is just like our map. So everything we do, we'll do something that finally lead to the path, to get nearer to the mission. Jelas kan kepentingan misi and azam? oh btw my long term mission is to have a good career and to successfully nail it! (like at least one achievement yang boleh dibanggakan or something similar to that) :D
-Actually this is just peringatan utk diri sendiri on why on earth I should create those goals. haishh.. ingat syifa ingat ni!-

Ok today my diary is majorly about my resolution for Ramadhan. (Minorly about sahur menu) - . -' . tomorrow InshaAllah I'll write another entry to kill time sbb I got simptom tak dpt tidur after subuh. I don't know what topic to talk about tomorrow. Mintak maaf dari hujung rambut ke hujung jari kaki for merepek di pagi puasa ini :) Salam.

SELAMAT BERPUASA MUSLIM!

2010-08-11T07:02:00.007+08:00

Selamat Pagi! I just had my sahur..I ate a mexican bun and a bit of cereal..mcm coco krunch cuma ia buatan Msia. Brand tak penting, janji ia sedap, murah dan dalam ekonomi pack (800g). Kemudian saye meminum nescafe and setengah botol kecil air masak. Today would be our 1st day of Ramadhan. If berkesempatan, InshaAllah I will do the countdown here on my blog sehingga berjumpa Syawal. Lame jugak saye x angelly touch this blog due to some circumstances such as pack schedule (ye ye je) and connection problem but most of all, saye dah lame x bermonolog dalam hati mcm dulu2. After quite some time leaving ENERGY alone, there were so many great things happened/occured in my life. Sbb so many great things, Saye kena pick yg sesuai utk dikongsi dengan segenap lapisan masyarakat. iaitu:

1) Saye konvo ahad lepas! (8 aug, 2010). I'm so happy that some of my friends and beloved ones (family and heartbeat) successfully made it that day. Hari tersebut menjadi bertambah berseri2 dgn kehadiran (dan hadiah2) mereka! I love uolz!

2) I joined this training..called CATT training under MOHE. It was awesome and whacked! saye suke trainers and trainees, activities, rules..kesemua2nya.. xdpt nak huraikan one by one..so If u are IPTA products of 2009/2010 do enrol ok. discover yourself through this whole 5days journey!

Dear Ya Almighty,

You give me failures to test me, To strenghten my faith in myself and to be strong. I believe You have a tremendous plan for me. So I hereby asking myself, don't give up. Ya Allah, please granted the prayers of hamba yang hina ini . amin~

Gambar 1- Im wearing the convo rob. It was heavy and not a good sweat absorber. But it gave me a priceless moment :) More than enough.

Gambar 2: The training. need not to say more. Memorable.

p.s- Now I'm thinking of my buka puasa menu..huhhh

To someone very dear to me, happy anni :) I already waited for more years to come..So I could just say this again and again. Love always.

TODAY IS SATURN-DAYS!

2010-07-24T16:58:00.001+08:00

Nothing much to say, lately I silently learn a few things about I don't know how to say it specifically.. maybe I could label it as life.

*I am a fighter but a fighter who always malas to fight and that makes me angkat bendera putih really soon. I'm grateful that I have someone who has succesfully escalates my spirit back and makes me fight til the end. Thanks for that. Profusely :)

*Selain itu, I learn about my previous sins. (HAHA) sorry, eventhough it's not funny but i found it pretty amusing. I wish I didn't do that and I really hope I could fix some people's heart back. But I know, As we already move on, we create new chapters of life. And that makes me more concern about that new story, so I could be there to prevent that thing to happen again. I am happy enough if I could help :)

*I am back to be a good friend and a good listener.

*I learn people's types in the world and try to menguasai every each one of the character.

*I learn about myself. The true colour of myself. and the music that I really2 love.

*I promise not to easily giving up and give myself more chance. Not to forget to continue learning.

*I just want to make her proud. To u mom, yes :)

a boring note, just a thought..maybe some!

2010-07-24T16:23:00.001+08:00

HAAAAAA...love blindfolded us..marriage is a real an eye opener. Why? because we already know our spouse really2 well. No excitement, sparks and no mystery anymore. Sometimes, we can even read whats on their mind and we can even tell @ understand perfectly when our partner use double meaning word or every meaning behind their acts and habits. People tend to say love can be so boring. Thats how that boring term exists. Once a married couple start a family, in the beginning of their journey is still fill with love (and lust) but as time passes by a married couple only engage/ attach with one another because of one thing, Responsibilities. The kids they have together. Life is not about themselves anymore. Their world is revolves around kids, Career, finance, warry, security, bills and many more. Lose focus on their relationship. Fade away. How stressful life could be? thats why they come up with the solution. Marriage couple treatment-through counselling, relationship-reinforcement activities etc. For married couple, they'd been so in love before they got married, they had too much love in the beginning, it's not impossible to re-do it all over again.

L is unpredictable. If you can't take the riddle then just leave the puzzle. heart says.

2010-07-19T16:16:00.005+08:00

Today I feel like I am 16 again. I pretend to be what I'm not. But as a human being, I can't never like what I dislike or dislike what I like. So there u go, the unsolved problems. I keep arguing, But I don't know. who am I trying to convince.Is it the other party? or myself.

Today I comfort myself by telling my decisions are right. every decision I made is right. But why I always feel skeptical about it. Why I need explainations for every act I take. Love isn't easy. No one tells that. So, every single "isn't easy" thing needs sacrifice and you have to fight for it. Never give up.

Love made some people no human. Jealousy, greedy, ungrateful, rivalry, self-centred etc. cuz love has no training. Love is only a feeling. Feeling that controls by heart, minorly.. mind. Again, Am I talking about myself.. Or did I just rephrase some magazines' quotes?

Heartbroken. The next day I know, I'm composing a song. spontaneously, If a song you made because you're broken-hearted, means you already a pieces. fall apart. Re-again, what song I sang just now?

Love should make oneself feels secure. securely positioned. But what happens if everyday is another race and worries?

last but not least, I'm not an expert. been there.

if love has no end, then how could the lovers end?

Why must people come and they'll go? [and some lessons]

2010-07-11T18:58:00.002+08:00

Gosh!I lead an unorganized life once again is it hard for me to live without a family here.. or maybe I am too family oriented person? alone and loneliness once they come..why they'll stop by lama2? why can't they just leave sooner.. like happiness and laughters always do? [sometimes loneliness is more loyal companion than laughters and joy]

Dear Lie,

Please persuade her not to cry, Tell her everything that'll pleases her ears. Convince her that everything's gonna be okay. [sometimes lies comfort us effectively and much better than the truth does]

We always have a bad perception towards negativity. everything we believe or make believe we must balance it. Practice mediocrity. Do you believe that someone with an abundance of confidence in something they love doing, they can fall into pieces if they fail 'em? Open your mind. Think in both sides. Ups and downs. the front and the back. outside and inside. human, we are flexible :)

LONG DISTANCE RELATIONSHIP ANYONE?

2010-06-22T19:01:00.009+08:00

First and foremost, forgive me for being such a typical young woman who still cannot live in merely real world. I enjoy being in this..just like in high school when my girlfrens and I always busy talking about each other's crush on hollywood star or football player and exchanged stories like nobody's bussiness. Yesterday I watched this romantic movie called Dear John, it adapted from a novel written by a well known author Nicholas Sparks. To be frank, it brings back all the memories I've had in highschool. I still can't get over that movie and the actors too! Tatum and Seyfried! I wish I had Tatum's abs and Seyfried's perfect glowing hair and skin (plus her big eyes too). Another wish is to gather all my geng form 2 amal, (Back in form 2) and talk about this movie all day long. Just like we did after watching A walk To Remember. We all felt excited and repeat the HIGHTLIGHTED dialogue over and over again. Ok! I can't stop grinning now!Someone please do the honour , de-grin me!

You gotta watch this movie in order to know how sweet this movie is! But every movie has its pros and cons. To me the cons would be, the typical romantic movie and the dialogue too. Its like a recycle of love quotes or something. But I still love it! I dont care. Like who cares! I'm still drown away by this movie. So dont say anything! Dear John is really something to me cuz it's about LDR (long distance r.ship). Sadly to say, I'm one of LDR practitioner. To be honest, waiting is hurtful and sometimes could be tiring or testing. And I know FB, twitter or Skype wtv cannot compensate the need of having my lover beside me, But I'm ready to take in the challenges. it's all worth waiting for. HE is worth waiting for :) So Bring it!

Last but not least, I really love the idea of having a specific menu on a specific day like monday- lasagna , tues- meatloaf and bla bla. So senang and organize! (ok good guess, its from the movie too..haihh). thats all for today's crap. outtie!

John nak pinjam bahu boleh!

Savannah nak pinjam rambut boleh!

*the actors*

Miss you so much it hurts

*the nobody*

CURRENTLY I'VE BEEN HANGOUT WITH THIS

2010-06-19T21:53:00.000+08:00

I used to dream of being a millionaire without a care. But if it wasn't for my love ones, Maybe I wouldn't even care about being one or chase after my dreams or even force myself to finish college. I believe everything I do, I do it cause I wanna share 'em with those people I care. Without them , my whole life means nothing. EMPTY. I always forget how to appreciate, now I'm learning to cherish them every second. Cuz once they gone, You never know, will they ever come back. 'Whats the point of having everything', Someday..you might question yourself.

23 things

2010-06-18T21:21:00.002+08:00

First and foremost thanks to cik bume yang sudi tag saye.. U're soO mean and the best! teehee..so tanpa melengahkan mase saye ingin memulakan majlis dgn menjawab 23 pasal diri saye..ini ape yg saye rase...so kalau korang rase cam bercanggah..sile senyap! OK start!

1. Name betul saye ade 1 but name tipu ade banyak. kawan2 byk call me Pha, Syifa (of course) , Bear, P, Cubi. But family saye biasenye call me Tatan, adek or Intan. Paling saye suke of course SYIFA.

2. Intan ni arwah nenek (tok mak) saye yg bagi. She liked that name a lot. So memandangkan Saye cucu pertame perempuan, So Jadi la name timang2 tinggi I.

3. Anak Bongsu and saye ade abg besar.

4. Abg besar saye betul2 setahun lebih tua dari saye sbb birthday kami same!

5. Saye adelah seorang Jamadilakhir /LEO/bertahun Naga/Aug.

6. Saye rimas dgn org pengotor dan x kemas brg elok2. Contohnye lepas minum letak atas meja instead of basuh or Balik rumah letak beg sepah2 instead of simpan kat tempat sepatutnye. Tolong buat bende tu semua on the spot!

7. Allergic to dust. Kalau dust x wujud kan bagus atau ade invention such as Dust-proof. mmg I beli!

8. Saye suke pegi mall utk sight seeing and bukan shopping. Dan saye suke perjalanan jauh kalau naik kereta sbb I simply love sleeping in the car!

9. I shop when needed. Kalau ade duit pun saye x shopping sbb saye cam x tau nak bli ape. mmg bukan shop-wise! but I love beli groceries and saye byk invest duit on food/beverages

10. I think I'm fussy.

11. Always mistaken by people as someone who talks a lot all the time. yes! I'm a chatter but only to certain people at certain times. When letih/X ada mood/ xsuke org.. I will shut up like nobody business!

12. My voice sounds childish, people will stare at me once I talk if they meet me for the 1st time. Dulu mmg jatuh self esteem but now, Da biase..Kdg2 xpasan pun until my mom told me :)

13. Kadang2 saye rase saye mcm pompuan lemah lembut. Sbb saye tak tgk bola, xsuke ESPN, saye x pndai drive manual sbb takut, etc. But saye pun ade boy side mcm saye rase saye kuat physically krn saye boleh tolak almari besar, angkat katil sorg2 (ikot berat), buat kerja2 laki mcm panjat tangga betulkan lampu, boleh tarik teh mcm mamak, etc. I guess that makes me normal :)

14. No one can force me to stop what I want to do or buy :P

15. Saye tak suke tgk cerita yg memerlukan saye mengguna emosi yang berlebihan..mcm cerita sedih..Sbb saye .. Just don't like it

16. Saye suke cakap cepat2 kadang2 dalam satu nafas je.

17. I love making my own decision. People can say their point of view to me as reference. But the one who decide would be me. My mom train me to be that way. So saye x kan ubah.

18. Most of my Friends said that I can get along with many people.. But the truth is..Only certain very little people I can fit myself with. Trust me!

19. Saye tak suke procastinate!

20. Saye tak suke show my real feeling or sometimes I just forgot how to do that. But doesn't mean saye hipokrit. I feel comfy doing that.

21. I'm a movie-buff!

22. I feel awkward at times

23. Tgk balik no 20.. Ok dah.. pastu saye sebenarnye mmg xsuke cakap feeling I tapi I x pandai sorok guna muke, If I dislike things I would show it on my face. I couldn't help it. so eventually org akan tau ape saye rase. aicch!

Last but not least, Kene tag 3 org.. but I decide to open tag. so sape2 nak buat, sile sile okie!

thanks for the time kawan2 ;p

CUZ YOU ARE A BAD DAY :)

2010-06-17T21:57:00.005+08:00

WhaSsuppp with the smiley face anyway.. haihh~ just to add some spice to make it even more controversial sebenarnyee... This story maybe better left unsaid but I can never keep it to myself cuz it just my nature to share. Sharing something appropriate (or maybe sometimes not that appropriate) is my policy *shake hands* eherm eherm..today is so awful! Gosh awful or unlucky..I can't even decide which one is the best to label today! below are the ingredients of my dipsh** day. I know unappropriate words..so need to be censored. Don't worry, it just a candy-brand... kot?

1) I fast today (puasa ganti) because Ramadhan just around the corner, which is a really good start la kan..Maybe somebody threw a prank to me after I berbuka..Cuz my nightmare began after I finish eating nasi with sardin with sayur with telur dadar with bla bla and blaahh blooohh (the list goes on and on). ok tak penting, the main story is.. After makan besar itu berakhir..I was craving for mocha. this is how we roll..jump to no 2.

2) Jump! Mocha home made it is! because so mlm already nak keluar to get the blended one. I made it by myself for optimum satisfactionary sake and sbb saye terer. But it end up.. just say.. not happily ever after. I was so gopoh/kalut in utara. So after masuk choc powder and a lil bit of coffee powder to get that kick-a** taste.. i termasukkan garam accidentally..I thought it was sugar. my mom put both of the items nearby to each other. I got rabun..so this is how we roll! I drank and menuju ke sink to buang some leftover in my mouth..the taste was EWW! kaallaahh air laut uuuu!! luckily x puke..syg nasi mkn tadik!

3) After getting some rest of poisoning myself tadi..I tetibe crave for chocs..dark chocs to be precise that I bought 4/5days ago.. I browse through the fridge and I found none! nothing! sh** somebody must be a choc-thief! I x kedekut..But do ask me if u want anything..I wont say no ok..no worries (maybe I would, depends)..so please! geesh! now kempunan already.. Luckily my aunt punya ada..but white choc la..which is so not my cup of tea..I know who stole my dark chocs! nasibaik bukan family member! darn u budak!

4) I got a major sorethroat now..So everything I eat become less tasty. I didn't enjoy eating just now. Saye suke makan..ok, who doesn't kan? I am a chatter box by nature! Now everytime I speak, I hurt my throat, so I prefer to silent myself. But.. yah, I am tired to shut the f*** up already. I need to talk..err..it hurts! still! aisssshhh! I can't even raise my voice up to 4 Desible! :(

5) My looney retarded cousin left the house for KL today. Only by Tues she' ll be back..To be honest, I ve lost it..tak ada org nak cari 'snow' in my hair, play top white head search on my cheeks and the area berkaitan or a laughing partner while watching annoying orange! and many more :(

6) Gloominess goes really smooth! until now apabila my stomach is grumbling and unhappy..Maybe I ate cut chillies inside the sardines mom cooks for me. But nvm, berkat bahh! So that how the story goes..Isn't a bad day after all.. I just exaggerate! teeehee :D thanks for your time reading this. well spent huh? **

Later I' ll update some tagging Ive got from my frens. Saba ye cik Bume and Linda. flying kisses!

Cheerio!

Don't worry,she's not dangerous.. miss u Apple! as in errr...NVM

REDUNDANT BURDEN

2010-06-13T01:59:00.005+08:00

Life feels heavier when you have to convey bad news to the one you cherish or love such as your own mother. Mom, Be strong. Everything happens for a good reason.

Sekadar gambar hiasan utk metafora 1

Sometimes, I just wish Life is as happy as eating Durian (even I am not a big fan) or munching on Donuts and Melahap ice blended. Rasa lemak campur manis. Ease your tekak, please your appetite. Try to apply that in your life oh oh. laughters and tears.. Both sound contradict..But it can happen at the same time. ok minus the one ketawa sampai nangis.

Sekadar gambar hiasan utk metafora 2

Durian..bukan sahaja ko ade durian fever.. Malah you give me fever.

p.s-Makan durian dalam kuantiti yang berpatutan

Actually, all of these are my random thoughts for today..maybe, kinda hard for some people to undestand. Unless to certain people who get used to a freako like me. sambung jap, something big is coming in my way. Way as in journey of life.. Like moulding my career (wait til I have to expand career..mmg letak tgn kat dahi laa pastu tepuk2 sikit) , sad news to the whole family, and the good news to (again) our family. Lose one, gain one, perubahan suasana etc. Gosh! honestly, my life becomes more hectic and adventurous. Whatever happens, I must keep my mind on the positive side. As always, in order to be strong, u gotta have faith! Go syif! u re just 17! ~~who was born in 88!~~

Life.. I can face u now! Kini diisytiharkan [Marching band along the way]..Teeehee!

Sekadar gambar hiasan utk metafora terakhir

keluar dulu.

LIFE STINKS?

2010-06-09T21:40:00.002+08:00

I wish everytime I opened my eyes, I don't have to think about those 'disturbing' things. I wish I could just breathe at ease and live happily without fear like most of my peers do. I know, I should've be more grateful, I wish I had more strenght to endure this uninvited thoughts and situations. It's hard to feel worry everyday, to play a big sister's role all the time and pretend like you are strong/matured enough when in reality u still a girl who still needs protection and fear of loneliness. Seems like I need to discard all the desires. Cause I wasn't made for that. My purpose in life.. the 'preparations' I've through.. to make myself ready in the future. God-creation with special qualities. Just like any other human-beings.. we are made for what we are meant to be or serve in the world (minus those jerks). I love my family. All I wanna do is protect them. I try my best to do whatever it takes to accomplish this. Ya Almighty, please assist and guide me. Don't let me shed another unnecessary tears anymore.. Please..I beg for your mercy..Ya Allah. Amin Ya rabbal Alamin ~

:)

LOVE AND LIFE,

SyifAziz

THE TRUTH ABOUT JOGGING

2010-06-06T21:08:00.001+08:00

Kini, lokasi saya adelah di Sarawak utk berholiday selepas penat bergelumang dalam dunia pelajaran. Disebabkan kekurangan aktiviti dan cousin saye berade di Jakarta saye ~~terpakse~~ memenuhi mase lapang dengan aktiviti sehat. I was toss and turn the whole day thinking of what should I do to keep myself preoccupied..so tibe2 rase nak pegi jogging. Setelah sekian lame meninggalkan arena ekstrim itu akhirnye, saye menceburkan diri selama beberapa mins. maybe dlm 30 mins kerane berlakunye komplikasi pernafasan dan kekurangan stamina [plus malas].

I thought saye da mulekan hidup sehat start petang tadi..dah tu balik, tibe2 perot jadi lapa dari luar biase.. lapa mcm tak mkn dari pagi.. oleh itu, tanggungjawab perlu dijalankan..saye pun mkn kek lapis, kek coklat, garlic bread dan roti hotdog dari Taka yg gebu dan lembut .. and di akhiri dengan minuman toksah di kabo kan..jumlah kalori nak dekat same ngn burger kot.. air cadbury choc plus susu tepung I mix dengan hazelnut white coffee sket.. Bisikan nafsu telah menjadikan saye sgt semangat utk melahap kesemuanye.. so I came up with conclusion, jog akan membuatkan saye lagi byk mkn..I am not sure about others..but it always happened to me, Based on true story and observations berperingkat. Y larrrrrrrrrrr~~~!!! kini saye berase mual..BHAAA~~~~

I hope tomorrow will be better and BETTER! of course..better activities!

DAMAI YANG HILANG

2010-06-02T13:54:00.001+08:00

WAR IS NOT THE ANSWER.. PBB NAMPAKNYE KNE UBAH PERLEMBAGAAN OR SO-CALLED PRINSIP MEREKA .. SINCE THEY SEEM LIKE DIDN'T DO ANYTHING ABOUT SERANGAN KE ATAS GAZA. I KNOW U.S IS THE VETO POWER. AND NOW, THATS HOW ECONOMICS BECOME IRRELEVANT. US MAYBE HAS MORE THAN 70 % SHARE IN U.N SAHAM OR WATSOEVER I DONT CARE..BUT AT LEAST, PLEASE GO BACK TO THE ROOT OF HUMANITY.. WE ALL HAVE FAMILIES..ALL WE WANT TO DO IS TO PROTECT THEM. WRITING BLOG OR TUKAR PROF PIC WARNA HITAM KAT FB MUNGKIN X AKAN UBAH APE2.. CUZ THEY ARE TOO BUSY STRATEGIZING NEXT SERANGAN AND WHAT THEY HAVE PLANNED OUT FOR THE REST OF THE YEARS, HAVE TO BE EXECUTED.. SMALL COUNTRY HAS TO WATCH OUT ITS BUTT, THIS IS THE NEW ERA OF VETO POWER OPRESSION TOWARDS KUASE KECIL-KECILAN. Malaysia..You are included. THIS IS ALL ABOUT RELIGION? RELIGION SUPPOSEDLY BRINGING US TOGETHER, BUT THIS IS TOTALLY STRAYING AWAY FROM THE ORIGINAL PURPOSE. WORLD IS TEARING APART..HUMANITY BECOMES GRADUALLY DYSFUNCTIONAL.

THE PERFECT ENTRANCE

2010-06-01T17:28:00.006+08:00

Lately, I missed updating some highlighties whats happening in/outta my life. In fact, I had abandon this blog for a few days. Life is preoccupied once again. With activities and some visits to a new place like I-city and the place I've been before like melaka the historical city. I supposed, I've had a REAL weekend after all *heart smile*

The perfect ambience today, is the push for me to start writing again. The soothing atmosphere at last has arrived, the ambience that I've been seeking for a few months ago. Just now, I met my supervisor to hand-in my completed-thesis and I thought I would be happy/cock-a-hoopy or stuff like that, But I feel so sugul. In fact, knowing that the last goodbye I pronouced to him just now.. Was the real goodbye afterall. My supervisor never been that chatty before as he was just now..I felt welcomed and dihargai. yup! he gave the sweetest smile when I said, ok prof bagi grade cantik2 tau.. (salam-muslim greets another muslim not shaking hands la) and waving goodbyes (me closing his door neatly and leaving Econs department ASAP).

on my way down to the next destination, I kept thinking about my supervisor and his weird act. It saddens me because..I don't know.. no one really2 knows when they get upset. It could be hormones-confusion or situation-complication. Now, I am all alone in my room, typing, composing and reminiscing switchingly..struggling hard to define my feelings and put it into a perfect sentence. not to forget counting down the days for me to go visit my mom and bro in Meow city. Hope everything is as perfect as planned. Sooner or later, we shall know.

It's me wearing a free cap by ayam A1 and a shirt my cousin gave to me and a jusco-go green- bag.. and a sg wang sunnies.. now who cares about Xtian leboutin shoes, Louis vuitton purse or Prada apparel and maybe sunnies by gucci? still can count me in!! teeheee.. Some people might wear those to feel superior..I'm just saying :) KISS AND TWIRL!

FREEDOM TASTES SO SWEET

2010-05-26T21:45:00.002+08:00

Hah! sebab awk la saye tdo pon ingt awk, mimpi pon awk jadi watak utama, jalan2 dok terngiang2 nama awk

awk la thesis saye

(ini adalah draft thesis saye yg kene reject, byk gak pokok kne tebang disebabkan perkare tersebut)

After been in such a whole tiring few months, I finally managed to get my self out from cengkaman thesis. After quiet several of rejection, I finally got accepted. Thanks to my beloved lecturer/ supervisor for never ever give up on me. I know I did mess up here and everywhere. But what he did, was just throw his smile and laugh at my loqlaq-ness and corrected it until it comes to near perfection. Today, this morning, I got the feedback that I long for, He said those keramat words that made my day! I was happy as happy meal that got me singing along the journey to bustop sbb tgh dgr ipod and lagu kegemaran tgh bermain utk balik ke kolej. and yes, he accepted it and said awk da boleh jilid! yayyyyy!

Ucapan penghargaan yg standart VVIP starts here!- ape2 pon saya nak ckp thanks kat mama saya yg tak tdo lena dek aduan saye yg macam2 nie.. sakit blakang la, demam kecil-kecilan la, kaki denyut2, kepale kebas la spjg membuat thesis etc..anak pompuan sorg ..tp mcm berpuluh2 kan mama..sorry ye! I love u my greatest love! and to all my friends yg terpakse bersaba tgk status2 pangkat annoying kat Fb berkenaan tesis..mesti korg ade ckp camnie 'ele..org lain wat tesis juge, x rioh sekampung cam ko pun..hek eleh.. ' biase la.. saye nie terikot cara ayam.. aym dpt telur satu..da 'ko ko ko' satu kmpung.. But anyway thank you (s) sgt! especially to those who taught me mcm2 berkenaan statistics, teman saye kat library (U know who u are) and ajar edit tesis ikot gaya UKM. Janji kamu menyusahkan idup saye edit-editan oi!

Last but not least, To encik hearbeat..thanks and sorry terpakse dgr bebelan saye sepanjang 4 bulan. bebel yg x bebel sgt actually more to keluh kesahan.. saba yek.. thanks for everything! *heart smiles* ok oleh itu, dgn officially nyaa.. I am no longer a UKM student and berstatus penganggur! I must say, being a student is the most I miss! Title student.. contains LOTsa meaningful memories :)

Randomnization (ayt baru wujud 3 mins tadi) - It doesn't matter how it starts, cuz whats important, how it ended.. kan kan..mcm no gak 000123 .. yg signifikan ialah 123..but kalau 123000.. haaa! kan best kalau angka nie ade dlm bank kite! ye tak ye kan.. ok, silalah menabung! tibe2 out of topic..before that enjoy this

Ambil gmbr yg vain utk merase mude (tips).. btw ini adelah kejadian semalam sebelum berjumpe Prof kegemaran saye..amek mood ape..ke self obses..eww!

ok bye!I need to take some movies from my fren. tgk cte hindustan br hype! kan.. kot.. ntah

THA-THA!

AMAZING AL-HAD!

2010-05-23T15:27:00.003+08:00

1) Ahad da mencerminkan (al-HAD) mari kita bereHAD/t!! which also means HAD of the week. Indirectly spoken, we need to rest. Sbb nati monday, we need to get back on track..yes, org bekerja in particular.

2) Tadi tibe2 bangun saye mendapati suhu badan menjadi x normal. so I conclude that today saye demam kecil-kecilan and its time to take 5 from hustle bustle of thesis .. Now I know penangan tdo lambat and kesan stress terhadap tahap sistem imunisasi diri [ mcm tajuk tesis u]

3) Sejak mengambil ekonomi sbg platform hidup saye, sedikit sbyk it changed my nature. I become more analytical. especially the way I think. I tend to think about something in more depth and breadth point of view. hasilnya, saye berfikiran kompleks and sometimes rase otak tersimpul and trus lost..BHAAAAA

4) Sambungan no 3, pastu saye rasa saye ni weirdo.. bila saye ckp, saye akan berfikir dulu abstrak2nye dlm kepale.. mase high school abstrak saye dlm bntuk normal word, now sume dlm persamaan..equation! So kadang2 agak sukar nak phm ape yg saye smpikan. no one to blame..cuz I don't understand myself too sometimes. once again.. rmi2 jom! BHAAAA

5) Saye suke random thoughts, Sbb it helps my brain to exercise, But consequently I cannot stop thinking about that thoughts. yg tu x best, sbb nati kepale berdenyut2 dok pk punya pasai. contohnye, I once terbace quote by Einstein saying.. The Hardest Thing In the World To Understand is the income tax. yeeeer..janji sampai skang I dok pulun think about the meaning. Maybe I could be the word analyzer!

and...I don't comprehend my real objective of making this entry look like a Powerpoint or something instead of put it in a paragraph like I always do.. ok tu je.. time to rest til tomorrow Approaches!

before that, ade ke org phm maksud, Don't look at something from the mirror, Cuz In reality.. it is nothing like that.. I know..not! BHAAAA...

THE WEDDING PLAN EPISODE 1

2010-05-22T22:45:00.010+08:00

First and foremost, thanks to cik Huda yang x pernah jemu tag saye! *Bowing* Basically, this interview is all about your/my/we/siape2 la punye plan for wedding..ala2 interview majalah Wanita gituzz! Ape2pun saye sgt terhibur menjawab soklan di bwh ni (ok x jwb lagi da tahu, mmg x logik) AYUH!

1. How old are you?
17 years old, 5 years ago

2. Are you single?
single but not available (not married yet)

3. In what age do you think you’ll get married?

26 < years < 30, but if let say jodoh meets me sooner,lagi yay!

4. Do you think you’ll be marrying the person you are with now?
InshaAllah, Please amin and doakan ok

5. If not, who do you want to marry?
mm..Robert Downey Jr. la kalau camtu

6. Do you want a garden/beach wedding, or the traditional wedding?

Traditional, baru rase kahwinn!

7. Your ideal motif?
Garden boleh pegi selalu, even sblh midvalley pun ade.. if beach, better snorkelling tak pyh kahwin..so traditional won!

8. Where do you plan to go on a honeymoon?

kampung saye kat Rome!

9. How many guests do you think you’ll invite?

i think around 500 kat ats, x pndai budget pulak tang nie

10. Do you want an extravagant wedding or a simple wedding?
Nak extra-large-vagant boleh?

11. Do you want the traditional vows or something you’d make up on your own?
Tgk tema kahwin kita camne..nati kita jwb yg nie KIV dulu

12. How many layers of cake do you want to have?
Sarawak layer cake je la, yg selebih nya 5 tingkat cupcakes!

13. Do you prefer having your reception at a hotel or at a simple place?
Rumah satu and hotel satu! so merase la due2..ye la..kahwin bukan salu :P

14. When do you want to get married, evening or morning?
Hari Jumaat mlm Nikah, pukul 1230 tghari Sabtu sanding :P

15. You’d rather have your reception outdoors or indoors?
Depends On the weather, for guest comfortableness-sake [ayt nie mcm x wujud]

16. Do you like a grand entrance for your groom?
no need, tp utk saye boleh! :P

17. Name the song/tune you’d like played at your wedding?
To be honest, nak lagu endless love tp selang seli ngn lagu kahwin2 60-an

18. Do you want a solemn ceremony or a light one?
Ikot mama and mak mentua ckp camne

19. What age do you want to get married?
ice.age!

20. Describe your ideal husband/wife

I don't have any specific standart, But when I see this guy I know that our chemistry can blend and mix well :) I know it must be him

21. Do you prefer fine dining or just the normal spoon & fork/knife?

Fine Dining!! normal spoon kat mapley seksyen 1 pun boleh

22. Champagne or red wine?
Air Bandung Johor style!

23. Honeymoon right after the wedding or days after the wedding?
depends on current situation

24. Money or household item?
money. to buy household items. (huda, I tiru bolat2)

25. Who will pay for the bills?

share-share..gaji sape lagi tinggi kena byr lebih! kidding

26. Are you ready for married life?
not yet, But I'm working on it! blaja masak sedap2 and babysit kanak2 are my initial preparation

27. Will u always be true to your wife/husband
Dear my future hubster, yes I do

28. How many kids do you like to have?

range 2 to 4..If I got more or less,still alhamdullillah

29. A new house for a newly wed or an old one?
New house, Thats why financially stable is a must before getting married. tp rumah biase2 la bukan mansion ok

30. Will you celebrate silver wedding, gold wedding, or diamond wedding?
Gold fish!..yes i mean gold weds!

31. What kind of cuisine would you like for your wedding?

saye suke briyani gam utk malay food, gado2 for javanese food, sharkfin soup utk chinese food and ladu utk indian food.. cukup la heavy meal, side dish and dessert! (1 Malaysia baby!)

32. Will u record your honeymoon in a cd or dvd?

don't mind. kamera phone pun boleh, yg penting 'record in memory' Metafora yg berlebihan

33. Whose wedding plans would you like to know next? Choose 5 person.
my gorgeous:Mimie,lily,loli,felly,iszat,bume

p.s i love u- korang buat bile free tau..kalau x free KIV dulu ok

Harini ni random saye about brand. korang msti salu dgar pasal brand colgate yg sinonim dgn ubat gigi, milo sinonim dgn malt coklat, nestum sinonim dgn bijirin, mangga dgn gossipnye etc . Ini dikenali sbg Monopoli.Tp kini monopoli mcm so last-season punya issue (but on going) in this season, ade new intangible strategy for branding tp x la baru sgt..iaitu celebrity branding. Sebut Nike ingt Tiger Woods and ~~kes tamak pompuan,~~ Adidas ade Beckham, Gillete has Roger Federer , paris dgn Guess nye and Michael schumacher bergaye sakan dgn jam omega nye. So whats next.. take a lucky guess..hah!

tu je..THATHA!

BERITA MUTAKHIR

2010-05-21T13:04:00.006+08:00

Jam menunjukkan pukul 12.48 tghari which means, skurang2 nye hampir 6 hours saye tak bercakap ngn org. Gosh! it's killing me! Now I know how bored life is when tak ade roomate or in general, a company. Lumrah manusia mmg x boleh alone..even pemalu or spesies introvert mcm mane pun msti ade someone yg diorg boleh click and gossip/crapping smpi mulut lenguh2. I miss cik yaya..saye tau die tak kan bace nie..thats y saye confess secare mendadak. bilik nie tak riuh lagi mcm salu.. :( Nak balik holiday mcm kawan2 yg lain jugak..mcm2 perasaan yg saye tgh perangi. tp saye kene keep positive nati duet abis sbb kalau tension saye mkn byk, and peruntukan untk print itu ini akan lari. Lately saye kena belanje economically kalau nak mkn nasik bungkus hari2. So plan pngurusan kwgn kne cantik, tepat and padat.

Iklan: amacam pose mak, ok tak nok?

sambung..zaaasss

Hari ni penulisan saye tak bermotif ape2..ade tema je, iaitu 'isi mase sebelum jam menunjukkan pukul 2 lebih'. sbb saye kne mandi and nak dating kat library dgn my coursemate. x saba nak get out from this room and get a partner to chit chat even for awhile. At least mulut bersenam jugak..selain asyik kunyah je. Nasihat atau moral yg boleh disampaikn berdasarkan cte kat ats adelah perseverance and its technique. teknik salah..mungkin akan menyebabkan herotan dalam misi anda utk persevere. so take care and have a nice dazzling day!

FYI- saye tulis blog kadang2 dlm bhs or english or mandarin. sbb saye tak pandai bhs tamil sgt. ohh kalau pening bace maaf kan saye.. not my intention sbb I tulis ape yg i monolog dlm hati. so kalau hari itu hati saye ckp dlm bhs (mcm today) saye tulis in BM. begitu juge sebaliknye. this blog is meant to be like that..time je la. THA-THA!

In contrast, I begin to like it today!

2010-05-20T17:17:00.003+08:00

OK HARI NI HARI X CANTIK SGT SBB MY DRAFT KENA EDIT BALIK AND SO THE BANYAK CORRECTION PULAK TU. SKARANG HUJANNN AND KILAT DISELANG SELI KAN DGN CAHAYA.AGAK TAKUT SBB IM ALONE DLM BILIK..CIK YAYA BKN NM SEBENAR TP NAMA GLAMER DA BLIK FOR GOOD, ALHAMDULLILLAH THESIS DIE DA SIAP DAN DITERIMA, SAYE PUNYE PENDING SBB SAYE PUN XTAU NAPE, SUSAH KOT MODEL STATISTIK NIE. NVM, I FEEL RELAX NOW DESPITE OF KILAT CHY KELIHATAN SEOLAH2 MASUK KE BILK (SBB BILIK TGKAT DUE AND DIRECT DEPAN TINGKAP) SBB TADI SAYE DA MKN BYK.. NASI BUNGKUS- TDO-BORAK DGN HEARTBEAT-SOLAT- OAT,2 bUNGKUS BISKUT LEMON- CHIPSTER SWEET SOUR FLAVOUR-NESCAFE MERAH-ONLINE THRU IPOD SBB KILAT- SUSAH GAK NAK TYPE SBNRNYE .NAMUN KU GAGAHKAN JUA SBB BORING LAK X WAT APA2. BTW THIS MORNING I XTAU NK WAT APE TAU..THEN BUKE LA YOUTUBE..THE NEXT THING I KNOW, I END UP LEARNING MANDARIN ONLINE. EDUCATIONALLY FUN!! ESOK SAMBUNG LESSON 12 PULAK.. TEEHEE~

PJG LAK ESEI KALI NIE, MMG SYOK SENDIRI PUNYE ENTRY..;) OK KILAT MAKIN KUAT, TAKOT BTOL.. WISH MAMA ADE KAT SINI.. NAK SOROK BWH SELIMUT.. SELIMUT PULE TGH BASUH, GUESS GROWING UP PROCESS IS TOUGHER THAN I THOUGHT. APE2 PUN KENA CHEER UP. CUZ I JUST RECEIVED A MSG FROM MY MUM *hEART SMILES* TOODLES~ ZHAI JIEN! WO HEN LEI

before that enjoy this! yuphh, enjoy the popiah!

PIECE OF CRAP

2010-05-19T10:18:00.007+08:00

DEAR MYSELF,

NEVER GIVE UP ON SOMETHING BECAUSE IT GETS TOUGH, BECAUSE THE TOUGH GETS GOIN'

AND BECAUSE THE TOUGH GETS U GOIN'

hey all!! aloha! mabuhai! ok crap enough..can stop by now.. I created this quote just now..someone somehow inspires me. thats why, when I re-read it..I think maybe some people couldn't understand what Imma trynna convey here. [hopperz accent kot]. I hope everyone comprehends and apply this in our daily life

BTW, I feel much much better after watching this:

I used to follow him 2 years ago. Then I stop cuz I got something much better to do. No, It just that , wifi connection in my college a bit terrible.

hilariousism!! watch his previous episode if u like his vid. can be a laugh-booster or something. even he kutuk bieber..but he condemned beautifully! teeheeeeee :P and yes this lovely morning.. I feel energized and powered by nescafe and lemon-flavoured biscuits! (AND THIS IS NOT AN ADVERTISEMENT)

watch this..hoho

NOw, I'm all geared up and ready to go.. WEDNESDAY!

note-I think I'm kinda person who thinks in disconnected ideas, maybe thats why [somehow] I'm not good at giving speech..half true, half myth!

LEADERSHIP IN YOU

2010-05-17T16:29:00.003+08:00

WHAT TYPE OF LEADER ARE YOU? put that answer on hold..or answer it in your heart, you know yourself the best than others. Are you Mahatma Gandhi , Nelson Mandela Or Nazi? The similarity between these 3 are of course, all of them are iconic LEADERS but it just their style of leadership are different. Personally I'm so touched by what Mahatma Gandhi had contribute to the world and made such a big impact on people's life. That's the real meaning of leadership to me. Yes! Impact on others..because leader usually thinks in terms of result. And leader always put rakyat on top as their priority and sacred sacrifice, is never a think-twice action. Gandhi used to be a lawyer, He divulged negotiations rather than violence, he wanted people to merge as one regardless our religions/faith, geography, ethnicity, orientation etc. A not-so-big Guy with a really-big heart was a guy in everyone's life that I truly sincerely adore!

Before this end, extrovert has always been labelled as a good leader meanwhile an introvert more to negative side..But actually leadership is like a symphony. 'symphony is important to all leaders but quiet leaders might have an edge because they do more listening and therefore they might get a better and more information. Be a leader and not a boss. A leader's advantages are being able to make our voice heard and soldier on! :)

JUST GOT BACK!

2010-05-17T15:46:00.000+08:00

MY WISHLIST(s)-

1) Finish THESIS

2)Pursue my 'put-off' hols

3)Off to SWK by now

3)Got a job that I long for

4)More TIME..

5)Leave me aloneeee! Distract me once I am not busy! (yes, particularly you!)

6)A fine vacation with 2008, dec TEAM. (good old times huh)

7)Face to stop growing/planting pimples and oil. annoying!

8)Reduce weight! this is waAAYY beyond control

9)Eat-healthy

10)Muizz Zainuddin, balik esok!

STRONG SMELL OF COFFEE ESSENCE

2010-05-12T16:38:00.008+08:00

Aphrodisiac? naahh..it is just something I need to keep me energized and alertness booming! Gosh what the hell I'm crapping about..yesterday I submitted my full draft to DR. MJ. So today I feel kinda bored and lost direction as I don't know what to do in order to keep myself occupied. I wish there's a mall next to UKM and not to mention -ia adalah berjarak walking distance- I have to put it in my wishlist perhaps..no? I love walking in the mall. no no..it's not shopping-thing that matters. I'm not good at shopping..to be honest..sometimes I don't even know what to buy.I have such a bad fashion sense and I only like free make-up stuffs. otherwise, I always consider those things aren't part of my needs. cheapskate syifa!

My fave places to go for this walking-in-the-mall would be KLCC and Alamanda. I just love the size which is not too big/complicated and the ambience and the smells too. It gives me such a calm feeling and I feel free like a bird. ok, what a metaphore! especially when I passed by coffee shops or donuts outlet..wow! the coffee-ish smell's so menenangkan and soothes my senses. yup2! i akan inhale dlm2 mase tu..and exhale! legaa.. That's what I always do whenever I feel so stress out or feeling depressed. Human nature, we can't never avoid those negativites but we can prevent them. walking is a therapy. even there's a research about it and proven, that it's good for our heath too.

I'm thinking of something really random today like How to be 1st class-minded, how do I look and behave if I wasn't a girl, What if chinese speaks Malay and Malay Speaks tamil and korean Speaks English and Japanese speaks Javanase? I mean as in their mothertongue languange.. and What if my dad still here.. haha..random right? GTG

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!

2010-05-09T13:12:00.005+08:00

DEAR MAMA, HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!

I wish I could celebrate this special day everyday so U know how much I love U

From merely know ABC

until I know how to put em altogether and spell such a beautiful word as mom :)

Thanks for everything and be my everything..

I love you maumy!

InshaAllah kalau da kerja nati, dpt gaji 1st adek bli kan maumi jam satu set ok. I'm sorry sbb pernah hilangkan jam mama.. ;'(

SYIFA ON HER OH-SO-LAST-SEASON-PRE FAN

2010-05-08T18:37:00.002+08:00

OMG!!!-Intentionally promoting Usher's new song called OMG feat. Will.I.am (ok tipu!). I was born as someone who's always left-behind when it comes to teen phenomenon. Just consider that I'm too lazy to keep up with trend, on my defence.. it keeps on changing, rapidly pulak tu. Such a waste of feeling/time though. BUT! I'm a loyal fan. Once a fan, it remains forever..well depends actually, just nak buat ayt poyo.I'm pretty sure that everybody is familiar with Hilary Duff kan..I was once the ultimate watcher of Lizzie Mcguire that I didn't even mind if I watched the same episode for 10 times! AST** suke ulang banyak kali!!!

Ok,so how to relate 1st paragraph with the 2nd? hmm.. I'm not a GG fan but I did watch the phenomenon series..But still not a fan..But but! I just found out the 3rd season could be the start of something different!kinda get the feeling that I'mma be one of the fans either! yes, just because Hilary Duff did some cameo in that series.. I'm not sure lama ke tak apperance dia.. according to Mr.Heartbeat tak lama sgt. but still goin to watch! yahay! So, presenting *drumrolls* hils with her interview on joining the GG team! yeah,I know..I'm so outdated!

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tata for now! look like I've had stalk enough :P kissing off!

LAW OR TRADITION

2010-05-07T16:38:00.004+08:00

Kinda busy lately..not really..just making myself busy..so I wont feel bored and guitless towards miss Thesis. I'm in the library again!! I don't know why..But whenever I'm here,I'll acquire that mood..yup! that mood to write! I may not be the greatest blog-writer or someone who has most ideas of witty jokes..But this is me..I accept myself with an open arms! ~~cut it off~~..blaah!

Actually I nak update about my interview that day..it went well! I guess.. 1st time, I felt calm and managed not to lose my cool while talking. Thanks to miss Experience! U helped me alot! made some friends.. really cool people indeed! nice to talk with people who has various knowledge and thoughts. the interview consisted of 3 different level. each level has different difficulties and risks. 1st-low.. 2nd-moderate.. 3rd-u-know-i-know (high)

1st stage, I had to write an essay.choose only 1 question and answered within 15 mins.. one page kasik penuh ok? this stage, no one will be executed.So semua sila masuk stage 2.. stage 2, a bit hard kot. one-on-one interview. the interviewer asked me some questions. This part was to know what's your passion and which department they should place you.nervous kau! sbb this stage adalah proses elimination. So apalagi, I cerita la bagi hebat2 skit.. pasal hotdog sume..puji2 diri sket..tgn bagi gerak2 sket,so when I speak broken english dia x prasan..sbb tgn saye ligat bernari2. oh ye..he also asked me, syifa, why banking? -pleaseinsertcoinstoknowtheanswer- settle!

Then he said 'so Syifa, I'll place you at selling department ok'. lompat! berjaya proceed to the final stage..this part was risky. They asked details about yourself..and your goal..and your thesis too! damn! luckily I didn't lose it..still connected. She wanted to know what my research is all about and explain to her..this part was all about ujian minda. she gave me a paper. ada soalan.. 3 customers with diff backgrounds. It was about investment.If I were their financial consultant, how did i recommend/advised those people to invest wisely in different investment instruments. she gave me 3mins to think..and yes, I hentam mengikut logik akal.

So much for interview huh.. to all my friends who's actively looking for jobs..some tips to share:very cliche but hope it's helping and ini tak copy and paste dari yahoo! 1st, be yourself. don't be nervous, just relax..if you can't relax and be calm..find some friends to talk..don't forget to eat or bawak bekal makanan masa nak interview..takut u all lapa masa tunggu. bila lapa brain cells jadi malas..carbs is the best! pki baju yg nmpk formal and profesional..jgn pki sexy2 sgt (short skirt etc) and suar ketat (mcm skinnies) with kemeja. ~~so ugly!~~ cuz it would give negative perceptions from your interviewer. Lack of professionalism and tak tau dress code.. I saw some people that day yg pki mcm ni tak lepas.. kemas kan diri anda..ikatlah rambut anda yg wavy dan perang tu juga. oh yes, don't be cocky..mantain eye-contact..be energetic even you already wait for like 2 hours.. smile authentically.. and introduce yourself even they don't ask.. be polite and stay focus..and byk lagi.. but I know u guys have your own strategies! goodluck! assalammualaikum!

PENGISYTIHARAN ... HARI THESIS SEDUNIAAAAA applause

2010-05-04T17:08:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was quite a remedy to me.. :) went karaoke-ing with two of my coursemates..it is such a good way to de-stress..by stressing out your throat and stomach just to reach high notes..*blink-blink* try ok!And now here I am again, in the library with slightly different mood than yesterday. kalau semalam saye gile hari ni..lagi gilest! saye ber-dating dgn Thesis dr petang td smpi petang ini..ok actually nak tunjuk betapa kejap nye ktoerg hang out same2..tapi I da rase bahang2 bored ngn u.. u make me sleepy and dizzy2 lalat. nasibaik bakery is just around the corner..after a few sip of white coffee..trus I hyper and active so jadilah Hyperactive..luckily tak ADHD. not funny syif..moveeeeeee..

and tomorrow another pressure's coming! yay! I got an interview at Bukit bintang,royale hotel at 1330 from a quite well-known bank..so torturing because interview tersebut tak ubah mcm finals! dem! kteorg ade essay sume siap..tggl nak bagi pointer je..which is equal to recruitment process. hope essay itu berkenaan dengan benda2 logik..kalau x logik, I'll sleep and be rebellious..kidding.ttp jawab..tapi merapu.jgn ko suruh viva pulak lepas tu..mmg sah saye jadi statue of liberty je kat depan.I don't care what will happen tomorrow..but today I ll say bring it on! yeaaa..mmg esok saye akan jadi kecut.. muke jadi nerd..sume lengkap. RABU, don't give me a bad day ok. Cuz I lahir hari rabu la rabu..I know u re going to obey me.. BAIKKKK...! ok love, nak sambung karangan.. assalamualaikum..tc all!

LOVEEVOL,
SYIFA

tgk la sape pelapis celine dion beb

Tata for now..Happy happy wednesday in advance!

I WILL LEARN HOW TO PLAY BOWLING STUDIOUSLY THEN

2010-05-01T19:08:00.002+08:00

Adorable dance and voice u got there justy!! okay, I can't get over him yet..kakak suka awk!!! *gasping for air* sambung....

BTW, Today cik Yaya and I moved to another room for luar sem purpose and to pursue our on-going ~~(yeah right)~~ thesis. I guess we already lost 5 kg's, mane taknya..ulang alik dlm 5 times approximately , x kire naik turun tangge lagi..and clean up our new room yg mcm gua nie..haih..cube sum up semua..I guess dlm 5 Km's kot jalan..hooh..and to add some spice, cafe pule tutupp..today kan Labour Day..Mak aihh.. Once again turun naik bukit pegi kafe kat kolej bwh. But I'm happy afterall cuz We managed to accomplish everything perfectly from check out and check-in.from angkat2 beg until habis proses mengemas..yeah! I feel activated again! and tonight nak dload cteee..opppss..forgot my first mission already..sorry miss T..catch up with u RRrrreeeaaaaLL sooOONNnnnn!

DULU LAIN, SEKARANG LAIN

2010-04-30T21:33:00.001+08:00

Dulu..
Saye salu gembire, saye lupe erti duke

Dulu..
Saye salu bye-bye org sampai saye tak pikir perasaan org lain

Dulu..
Saye tak pernah berkorban sebesar ini

Dulu..
Saye salu minum ice blended, ade ke saye kisah pasal duit

Dulu..
Saye menangis atas perkare kecil/tgk cerita sedih

Tapi sekarang semua berubah..

Sekarang..
Saye terkilan tgk org balik..now I know mcm mane rase kena bye-bye

Sekarang..
Saya banyak bersedih drpd gembire tapi saye bersyukur

Sekarang..
Nak minum cendol pun saye berhati-hati, now I know value sehelai duit/skeping syiling

Sekarang..
Saye banyak risau, saye hilang fokus..tapi saye lebih banyak berdoa

Sekarang..
Saye mudah mengalirkan air mate, saye rase saye mcm tgh pikul beban yg besar atas bahu saye

saye letih sangat..saye da lupe bile saye betul2 senyum dan happy

Bila saye jalan sorg2..saye salu ckp ngn diri sendiri.. graf saye dekat bwh ke sekarang ni..atau saye baru sedar akan situasi ini sbb saye lebih matang dari dulu n lebih ambil berat tentang perasaan org lain. Saye byk merungut dlm blog..saye kerap berdoa..saye salu harap bile bangun pagi..saye jadi mcm dulu..saye ni pengecut, saye salu nak lari dari masalah..saye akan terus berdoa agar semua menjadi normal/lebih baik. Saye tau test2 nie semua nak jadikan saye matang..Kekuatan, saye perlu2 desperately perlukan awk. sebelum itu, saye takkan putus asa. saye tau Allah da buat link yang terbaik utk hamba2-Nya. Thanks Ya Almighty. I love YOU.

WHEN THE RAIN STARTS SINGING LOUDLY TONIGHT

2010-04-30T00:29:00.002+08:00

My heart is pounding strangely. As I inhale, the rythmic pound will pause for awhile and after a few secs The heart will pound harder. Faster than usual and the feeling is nothing great. I feel like grey clouds on top of my head covered everythings up. hardly for me to think straight. I'm sorry for the whine. But I'm in the need of being honest. I can talk to someone...if I wanted to..but when it comes to words, I'm not good at expressing them in order to depict my feelings. Cuz when I write, I feel calm. More calm. I speak too fast, I speak and I don't think. feel stupified. Tonight, I can feel the wind blows gracefully through my face, the mixture of the tears and the wind generate quite a few feelings.I feel relieved but lonely. I am scared but I am strong. It's courage that I'm longing for.

HAPPY ENDING DOESN'T NECESSARILY A FAIRY TALE

2010-04-29T06:52:00.005+08:00

Two days..since I left this blog, Untouched and as I expected..I'm gonna be very 'creative and active' during exams week[only]. Now when I'm all done with the E-word and free as a bird.. Those gifts are gone with the wind. heh (-.-) Plus, two days..pack with activities..yup! like watching movies, dine-out with friends and picnic-ing! but the last two activities were worthwhile and I don't wanna mention anything about movie..cuz I'm started to feel guilty towards Miss Thesis. You're awesome and great..But I'll catch up with you some other time ok? deal!

Probably gonna be my last time having dinner together with Miss Loli and Lily before I'm going to end my journey at the Uni. 'korang ade lagi satu tahun..bestnye!goodluck with LI!' Lily had upload some of our piccies together..can check it out on her glamourous blog. It was on the 27th =) and that was how the bad day went away. Dine out with your fav friends! and yes, yes, yesterday! what about yesterday.. ermm,I went to Ulu bendul with Syera, Loli, Gayah and kath. Not so much pictures could I upload here, due to some privacy reasons. So I just upload one of mine. don't know what to depict here..But kinda love this pic! biasela..syok sendiri is my middle name..teehee~

Showtime babeyh! building up our *MAHLIGAI* *big-grin*

A-ok! main purpose of today's entry is to do some Simple & Quick (S&Q) review about what did I do this past few days. Just to ensure when I blog-on to this.. I won't miss a single moment happened in my ordinary life.. that have been spent with some Extraordinary people.. those peeps in the pics are included! (no one can see the whole pic through my eyes) eheh. and if F is the word of the week, I just tawakal and redha. Every beginning should have its own ending. keep it positive! and yes, this is ain't the ending..The race is about to start, this is just the sparks of something new and incredible things in our life. New chapter, I'll meet you in another 2-3 months right after I finished dealing some issues with Miss Thesis. F-arewell I know finally we meet again .. inhale*

And to all my friends especially the close ones, Goodluck in your undertakings. We are heading to the new phase of our life .. Keep our mind open and ready for every possibilities! gonna miss korang. eww! (to miss loli, jgn sedih sorg2 InshaAllah nati aku dtg visit ko ok) *pause and think* ok la..bye for now!

Me-being-random-again: When you hate someone intentionally...do you hate them because they hate you?so you hate them back. lot to process up here though

And this is what we built!

THIS IS NOT A HOLIDAY---->YET

2010-04-27T15:11:00.002+08:00

Dear 27th,
I feel so demotivated..I thought today I wanna continue my thesis, But I still feel tired and I keep worrying about it..it bothers me a lot. I got a headache too, I wish mama were here..sounds like a baby but I just need my confidante so bad right now. Motivation please come back. strenght please don't go. This is the time when I need both of you the most! but headache..u can go away. don't force me to ask panadol to do so ok. I didn't mean to sound so melancholic like this..gosh, bad day.. please leave me today!

*Tears are words the heart can't say*

MEDIOCRE MONDAY

2010-04-27T00:21:00.011+08:00

Yahay! tonight tak ade nak bedtime2 stories ok.. just another quick-quickie! lately mmg trend saye nak quick ..sbb saye ngntuk harini wahai blog. tapi still wanna feed u with my craps. On your mark, get set and pull the trigger! larrriiiii~~!!!!

Okay shut up syifa'.. *ahem*..actually tak de pape fetch pun today. I just completed my final paper td.. subject Ekonomi Pembangunan Antarabangsa or in english..sile google-translatekan sndiri..annoying punya olang kan?? ha-ha-ha-move! D-paper was quite okay..cume tgn saye 45% melecet dan 55% letih. so tgn saye nak rehat arini.

Soalan struktur boleh sampai ke tahap leka menjawab tp..soalan essay..u decide la..kerane....(5 detik kiraan kalau boleh)

macam2 font dan size telah digunekan.. cume nasib tak ade bold and italic je..kalau tak mmg da mcm blog aku buat. ok even tak lawak but sgt btol..I sgt letih dan malas nak tulis sampai ade satu tahap nak tulis kat lecturer.. Dr. I think the answer is the same as above. sbb mcm byk point same.so mcm mls nak tulis byk kali. kalaulaa ade copy and paste =(

Well2..ape2 pun less expectation lead to a happy-hearted person, thanks Denmark..U are my inspiration tadi. Btw pasal post smlm, Malaysia adelah tmpat ke-17 manusia paling bahagia..boleh la boleh.. dangdut sket!

snapppp!

The room and I. the relationship that we had..no one has to know

Dear Cik bilik, let say if u have a new owner.. please do not forget the one who sapu u every once a week and the one who lap tingkap satu kali satu sem. I'm gonna miss u cik empat segi-name alternatif bagi cik bilik! and big big L.O.V.E to u! (saye suke mengeja sket).. I won't forget how we 1st met =)

okay tu je. harini mmg disconnected sket sbb mate saye and tangan saye letih,. diorg nak tdo lebih mase.

before I end this entry, random thoughts of the day- katekan Lady Gaga hidup pada 60 tahun yang lepas, she would be in tanjung rambutan sbb name die pun da state kan status die and by the way she behaves and she dress up juge..kan?..but what happen in this century..saye siap hapal lagu telephone okay! eh eh jgn misunderstood..I'm not a hater..kalau x, xde makne aku nak hapal..just some thoughts for people to process about this deeply (kalau ade mase je, jgn pakse otak sgt) kang aku kne saman kang.ok tu je..nak hit the sack!

Dgn lafaz assalamualaikum..I hereby, end this post -tooot- pobye!pobye! (popeye cakap bye2)

A VERY QUICK ONE!

2010-04-26T02:40:00.001+08:00

Okay ..I am not sure why I need to update this blog everyday..ok I will tell why but tomorrow.. instead of to kill excess time, I got another more relevant and defensive points. teehee :P yeah right, quick one konon..

*ahem* actually I ll be having my final paper tomorrow aka the very2 last one cuz this is my final sem at UKM =( sadness! move move..

okay, im taking a break for awhile as I feel tired baca factual thingy, boring!mcm nak give up..but ragu2 esok whether saye akan dapat jwb dgn hati sronok ke hati sedih. saye x nak dan x suke yg kedua tu! I once terbaca one article about the happiest citizen in the world. guess negara mana? ok aku je la jwb.. Denmark2! why this nordic country is at no 1.. why?? simple..because they live their life with less-expectation. So esok saye nak aplikasi dlm exam. less expectation leads to a better day and happy me(al) !! yes!

Btw saye tgh baca about crisis ekonomi..best x?? mestilah best cume boring je..hurff! extra tips- nak cepat ingt kan korg makan buah kering yang manis aka kismis, kurma, prun etc. selain good for brain, its good for health and body kerana ia akan reduce radical bebas dlm badan anda. radical bebas tu apa..google la ye..saye nak hapal faktor2 jap..tata! Assalamualaikum. have a nice monday everyone!

NOW I KNOW WHY RIHANNA MADE THAT RUDE BOY SONG

2010-04-25T11:23:00.005+08:00

Today's entry is kinda personal sbb I'm gonna voice out my opinion (again). As a precaution do not read for those who cannot handle confrontation or may be allergic to it. Cuz it may contains..sarcasm and anything related to that.

Ahad pagi lagi sedap nak membebel. gimme a chance ok..blame the exams! I got so stressed out :P Inspirations/the eagerness to write this appeared just right after I reached my room after food-hunting. This is true story anyway. lupe nak mention. ok start!I get so pissed-off dgn some people who got no manners towards org tua. aku allergic dgn2 bnde2 berkaitan dgn respect nie. I don't know who is this guy and which planet he came from.. But I feel like I wanna smash his face with nasi briyani..bagi pedih mate die!he's not supposed to talk rudely dengan org tua tu..sbb die muda..sangat! I thought at first he was sleepy because it was early in the morning right. Then this org tua asked for (something) cannot mention..kang org rude tu dapat dikesan oleh org2 UKM. pastu badi dtg kat aku. tak mahu! and then he answered mcm nak tanak senang cta ala2 nak mati. what a turn off!

I was there to observe the *soap opera* cuz I duwana accuse someone tanpa asas..then yg made me terkilan, came la this one guy with a suit, looks like somebody's coming! (maybe dlm hati laki rude tu jerit mcm nie) and maybe dia tu lecturer ke dato or tan sri I dun give a **** , tibe2! boleh jadi soft spoken ala2 tone ckp nak ayat awek. I was like..hey, *whatthefishcrap* discriminate and hypocryte btol! and the uncle tua tadi was maybe a gardener or something.. Mcm nak nangis cuz mase abg rude tu ckp kasaq2 kat dia, muka dia berubah expression. I can't tell whether he was sad or terkjot.. but maybe both!I hope Malaysian baik yang lain wont do this no morale thingy. Nampak sgt uncivilised ok. imagine if this happen to your datuk or pacik awk yang atas 50 tahun.. U all tahu kan, mereka ni da masuk golongan emas and extra-sensitive,please..do respect. They'll pray something good for you in return.

Sekadar renungan-Bhs kita suka label org ikot pangkat..macam kalau org tu datuk or kaya2 skit mula lah panggil beliau ke or (u-know-what-i-bet) and bla2, mcm beliau mula menjadi kaya seawal umur 22 tahun..tp kalau timur tengah mcm Jepun or Korea or aku tak tau la korg bg suggestion.. no discrimination (correct me if im wrong) diorg label manusia ikot senioriti..kalau org tua penggunaan bhs dia lebih sopan dan santun.haa..mcm tu! I think thats why some of our people still hold that narrow perspective. hey, x global and x cool ok! til then..Do respect, don't discriminate, be curteous!

Ell-Ow-Vee-Ee,

Syifa' U. aziz

and thats how u pronouce love =)

TOO MANY WHY SYIFA..TOO MANY

2010-04-24T20:42:00.002+08:00

When mind, strenght and heart are not together,

One's body will perished by emotion,

Why cannot I be positive,

Why my body ain't listen to my sanity,

Why can't I fake my optimism,

To continue my patience and perseverence,

Why am I here writing this,

Why can't I control me,

Why all of sudden I feel weak,

To be honest, will I ever be able to discover the truth,

Or there's no truth,

Life can you please stop the riddles for awhile,

Cuz I am a bit fragile today,

so I cannot guess the answer properly,

Bonda, your anakanda needs you now,

There's no place I could go or turn to here..this is so torturing,

Sanity versus emotions,

Sanity please ask emotions to leave me,

cuz you aren't the citizen of my kingdom,

I'd be relieve if you leave,

So don't tell me the vice versa

I cannot do this anymore

ADA APA PADA BEG

2010-04-24T14:15:00.003+08:00

Assalamualaikum and very good afternoon bro, sister, macik etc hope korang sume in a good shape and condition.kalau x sile refer post kat bwh nie. btw! (excitedkan sikit bunyik) I got a tag from cik ~~siamang~~ Hudhud untuk buat satu activity yg bertajuk..yaaa yaa..temen da mention kat ateh tu..

So here we go! start! 10 mins dari skang!(susunan terpenting ke yang kurang penting okaay) and terangkan sikit nape benda2 tu mesti ada dalam bilik engkorang..hoho..!

so kte ice breaking dulu-->

hello, saya beg syifa'..name saye blackie! name awk?

kamilah peneraju-peneraju blackiee!

purse adelah ketue! paling wajib ade.sbb ade duit, ID,kad kolej,matrik,ATM, ~~gambar piu-piu ngn adek nad~~ ,resit yg x berguna dan mcm2 lagi. I can't imagine my day without u reddie!

payung no 2. (kalau kat ukm) sbb I dun have a car. I need to walk. kang ujan kang, xpasal i mandi free..x kuase mak.i love u payung!

haa! org lain pki make up, die pun nak make up. hoho. ni adelah top 3 brg mmg kne ade. pencil eyeliner,lipgloss and mascara. dorg mcm adek beradik da.honestly jgn tnye saye pki eyeliner mase tdoq ke..it hurts la weh! aku tau aku x pndai pki and salu messy..huhu..blame the perspiration ok?

peh tu yg pnting sgt sbnrynye kunci ni ha..ko tade kunci aku x boleh masuk bilik..ape2 pun ure the best! i promise x kan lupe bwk ko lagik

kemudian2, haa..ni name die live! saye pki nie kalau saye ~~x mandi~~ or rase bufusukfuk..teehee..penting beb!thanks sbb x pernah gagal menyelamatkan saye! muacks!

saye nie seorg yang rabun dan x sedar diri.why i say like that..ya ya! saye x suke pki neither spec nor lens. sbb humm..spec saye besaq and x tukaq2 since matrix and so out of trend peh tu, lens..saye pki once dan decide.tamo pki da. ever! maybe..tooot and saye bwk sunnies juge..sbb saye rabun dan silau!

saye salu naik KTM kalau nak balik or pegi mid. sbb tu saye perlukan ini (rujuk kat bwh) kalau boring saye dgr..x boring pun donga jugak.sbb tunggu sorg2 kadang2 x tau nak wat ape..lagi satu nak mengelakkan mate saye tak tentu arah pndang org.hish!i love u my gedik! (gajet snrnye)

Tips of the day! saye ni pengantuk dlm kelas dan seorg yang suke mengunyah.. saye akan mkn bubble gum or ape gum la..x kisah asal ko halal je. sbb mkn gule x longlasting..kjap da masuk perot. saye boleh mengunyah 2 jam okie. smpi loya aku dibuat ko..but on top of all, ure my hero!

okie ini da masuk brg saye jrg bwk..tp terbwk..iaitu incik kamera dan incik compact powder. saye x suke pki compact sbb muke saye ade pore besau2.. so nati die masuk dalam pore tersebut and akan timbul masalah PIGmentasi kulit. xsronok kan..i will use it kalau ada event penting

I didn't mention cellphone did i?? kan.. sbb saye letak dlm poket. (ok x lawak) proceed..

dan kemudian arahan terakhir permainan ini ialah..tag kawan awk seramai 5 org (tp saya nak tag lebey kalau boleh sume org) ... lai lai leng lui!

felly
loli
anne
lily
mime
qyqy
and sape2 nak buat, buat ye! sorry saye explain mende ni pjg sgt..aku tgk pun boring..apetah lagi enkorang..mahap la ye

p.s-buat tau kalau korg da abis exam nati! and kalau boring cam aku nie haa..alohmoraaaa!! bye!

BAGAIMANA RAMBUT (boleh) MEMPENGARUHI PERSONALITI ANDA

2010-04-23T16:45:00.002+08:00

Yay! I feel so Yappy! sbb baru habis exam.. mls nak komen sbb I was damn sleepy and I finished answering all the q's within/less than an hour cuz I felt dizzy and so bed-sick! (mcm homesick gak arr) *potongpotong*

Ok move on! (amboi cepatnye move on) , in a day kalau x merepek mmg x lengkap hidup mcm smlm..so hari ni da activate balik..I wanna annoy everybody..get set,go! (on your mark hilang).

Today I'm gonna talk about mcm mana rambut boleh m'pengaruhi mood/personaliti anda. uuhuk uhukk..anyhoo pada teman2 gue yg bertudung x jadi masalah..sbb boleh praktik lam bilik..sng lam bilik je la wat.. :P

Actually ni mcm tips juge (kot).. so mulekan!

pernah x anda rasa mcm nak marah org..rasa menggigil2 sbb nak kuarkan perkataan2 yg x-sedap didengar dlm hati..yaa! btol2..kte hendak lah ambil air smyg kan.. okie good and pass!

Tapi lepas tu cube anda distract diri anda dengan buat rambut fringe..hala sume rambut ke depan..yg pjg tu x pyh la..aha!pastu tgk la muke anda lame2 .. tp kalau tak berjaye..x pe..cube la esok luse or rambut org lain (WTH)-abaikan subang besar tu, mengade toi!

Katakan satu hari anda terasa down dan tiada keyakinan..cube anda..yaa yaa..halakan sume rambut ke tepi..ala2 wanita sophisticated..mungkin ini membantu sedikit perasaan perasan anda(abaikan pule baju uniform KIY yg mungkin menjejaskan fokus anda)

Bagaimana kalau anda terasa gloomy dan sedih sbb tak dapat makanan kegemaran..ini penting and buatlah dengan teliti.. bahagikan rambut anda secara simetri.. lepas tu halakan ke tempat yang bertentangan..kitak org tunggah rambut ya belah tgh @ anda panggil ia rambot belah tgh

Okay then, tapi katakan bangun pagi lo terasa neutral @ tadak perasaan@ heartless dan cube mengenalpasti apa yang anda rasakan..sng cta..hg amek kepit baju.. pusin2 rambot depan hg..pastu hg letak kat blakang..(org pompuan pggil rambut romeo @ rambot blah blakang) mungkin terkeluar la apa2 rasa peh tu.. but if x de rsa pape.. biaq pi la..hg x ghugi pa2 pon

peh tu,last but not least.. kalau anda tanak main game nie..amek cap pastu pki tgk cermin 2 mins *mukemuke* caps off peh tu.. xyah main da.. lagi sonok kan dpt baring2 ats katil/ulangkaji (ker?) sementara tggu paper (exam) yg seterusnye!org kate pulun2 dahulu, sng2 ketepian okay..geddit?

Muke kene poyo bah, kalau x kne main lagi. okayy tu je.. abis da merepek sorg2..kte kne buat sesuatu yg lain dan lebih penting spt bli makanan kat cafe kang ramai pulak, jenuh mak tggu

for sesiapa yang ada masalah empowerment diri u guys can go HERE, ni serious punye website so jgn main2

thanks for participating! Assalamualaikum

MOOD EXHAUSTED

2010-04-23T01:49:00.000+08:00

Dear blog, I can't study anymore.. I'm so physically and mentally exhausted.

2 chapters more to go :( I cannot push myself any longer

I supposedly getting myself ready for bed

Tomorrow.. 830 am I ll face another paper entitled "Isu-Isu Ekonomi"

You are.. as interesting as my 1st attendance to the class

But I'm sorry..my willpower has reach its limit.

I need to close you Miss Buku.

Dear myself, I'm sorry.. I may let you down esok.

Ya Almighty, please help me endure tomorrow smoothly and please lend me an abundant of energy so I could fight better in the exam-battlefield :'(

p.s-kenape kalau kite letih kite tak ade mood, kite letih je bukan sedih..mcm tak ade relation pun.

bye! assalamualaikum

WHEN I'M NERVOUS, U PUT ME AT EASE

2010-04-22T03:23:00.002+08:00

This view can only be found at Kolej Ibrahim Yaakob,UKM@kolej saya. Sbb kolej kteorg paling tinggi, atas bukit! saya ambil gambar ni masa balik from PTSL. Ladies and Gents, An evening view :)

SUPER HOT!

2010-04-21T14:00:00.001+08:00

Assalamualaikum and good day everyone! I just had my lunch..what about u guys? okie potong-potong actually lagi sekali saye mengepos adelah sbb nak cerite pasal satu makanan yang agak popular dekat Msia tetapi berasal dari Thailand. Mcm ala2 Tata Young goes internationally. ~~WHATEVER~~!okie..anyhoo this food is known as Kerabu mangga so called salad mangga. berkhasiat yet pedas!

Is she hot?well.. Kerabu mangga lagi hot (bli kat kafe kolej saya kalau x caye)

Honestly today I thought I wanna eat healthy by eating rice instead of hari-hari makan apple pie, mmg stock up my body with fat. I pun beli kerabu nie kat cafe. just sbg precaution those yang tak tahan pedas jgn mkan. I was about to lose my deria rasa, lidah jadi kebas, kepala pun kebas, mulut tebal and panas, ohh super hot! xtau die pki cili ape but Im sure Gisele Buncheon would love to try this cuz she eats spicy food only.South Americano mmg!

So tomorrow I ll say, Im gonna stick to my own daily routine food, kerabu mangga (KM) bukan tak sedap but lain org lain citarasa btol kan? tapi mkn KM nie menyihatkan sbb die mengandungi karborhidrat yang rendah (good for all weight watchers out there),glukosa for energy,Vit A, B1, B2 dan C. InshaAllah ia juga dapat meredakan batuk (sbb Vit C content), menguatkan limpa,melancarkan peredaran darah dan meredakan sakit.. wait! one more, KM juga x dimasak.. eat it raw! kalau sushi korg boleh makan, nescaya KM is not impossible okie!

value added: selain dari KM, kerabu juga ada dlm btk kerabu sotong, kerabu pegaga etc. you all can browse it if korg suke okie!and log on here for the recipe! selamat mencuba dan memakan!!

EAT HEALTY TO BE HAPPY!

AN INSOMNIAC LETTER

2010-04-21T09:15:00.004+08:00

(Have you ever) The clock keeps tick tocking and your eyes actively tick-tocking too. You try to close your eyes and hoping that you will fall a sleep in no time..but yes again, in your dreams babeyh! cuz it ain't happen. you can't sleep at least for 3 days per week consequently. And apart from that you also bengang because you:

Waking too early in the morning (before subuh pun u da jage)
Waking frequently throughout the night
Sleep that is chronically nonrestorative or poor

okie by having these elements, you are a certified not a (-lawyer.la.fish-) insomniac! and welcome to the club! shakehands* coooongrats! (no?)

So lets say no to insomnia and make the world a better place to live in:

Exercising regularly before dinner. Exercise should not be done too close to bedtime because it can cause restlessness. kang makin tak tdo
Caffeine is a big No-no in the afternoon and say No to nicotine!-dgr tu Felly and hudhud!
Expose yourself to late afternoon sun, explanation u guys can google it here
practicing some stress reduction techniques (yoga, pillates,main game,FB,karok mcm syera syee)
Change your lifestyle habits that can lead to insomnia such as tengok bola malam2, buat assignment malam2, ~~gayut malam2~~=p, don't eat carbs, exercise before bedtime. So instead of doing those at night we can change the session maybe earlier than night perhaps no?
Last but not least, switch off the light and ZZZ, okie saya tdo tak tutup lampu!

Preventation is better than cure,always! Insomnia is dangerous than u thought sebab nanti mata awak tak cantik, focus menjadi kurang ke tahap 25-50%, mood swing and depression, tension headache etc.

LIVE HEALTHY LIVE HAPPILY!

P.S-no nescafe mamak buat, save RM 1.70 and plastic usage and straw too!BYE.BYE.NAK.TRY.TDO

S.O.S (SAME OLD STORY)

2010-04-20T20:56:00.018+08:00

Was hoping to see my thesis supervisor.. but harapan hanya harapan
Dropped by @ bakery for its well known apple pie and moved to the next pit stop

Went to library/PTSL to pursue my revision.. But due to the climate change I get so sleepy and started to camhore and listen to some music..shubidoobidoobopbop!

Ohh,still got some raining leftover. continue my revision but couldn't focus anymore

Ass off and slowly walking back home..but singgah ke cafe to buy nescafe as I felt loya. I thought I wanna discard nescafe in my daily menu, ternyata mission unaccomplished.

Reached the target which is my room. Time to rest til tomorrow (morning) and the schedule/routine repeats all over again

*THE.APPLE.PIE*

*THE A.P FROM OTHER DIMENSION*

*5 mins after revision (only) . try to re-get the mood by cat-whoring*

*Teman baik ketika mengantuk especially at library. semua org senyap, bile kte ckp sikit..shhh.. bile batuk pun..shh! whatthefishcake!*

*nescafe ais mamak buat paling sedap nak2 kaler mcm nie. keruh2 sikit. baru ummphbombastic leads to insomnia at night. dem!*

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count down the day til I meet another paper!1, 2, 3 more days to go (die)! tata!

CALL FROM MISS SERENITY

2010-04-19T23:55:00.000+08:00

As I go through my profile pictures on Facebook,

Some strange feeling emits inside,

Something I need to change,

Something about me

In searching for pure happiness and serenity

UNWANTED TRANSFORMATION

2010-04-18T09:30:00.003+08:00

Again, I cannot re-sleep after gettin up for subuh. as usual when I cant sleep then I ll crap-talking :)

Actually I think/am sure that I've transformed a bit-not-it's-a-lot! I mean, reached the 20's.. I ve changed physically and mentally too. to be honest I hate changing la.. maybe I can't get used to it yet..hope so. Physically change that I can detect of course, my teeth getting bigger that when I smile it can be soOOO notice-able and it damn hideous man! my bones pun membesar lately. that one of my friend said that, hey kalau aku tgk ko dari blakang..aku ingat ko nie lelaki rambut pjg.dem dem..

It makes me so awkward standing beside people with same chromosome. cuz I feel big and lebar! while they are tiny (they're normal, I am not!) And and yang paling dibenci oleh kaum hawa of course..my cheeks! chubbier pastu dulu if makan banyak senang turun. now makan sikit cepat naik! x seronok laaa!I admit my nature is that am a sweet tooth. so it's hard for me to restrain myself from eating those that can lead to diabetes. hope I could reduce it. and mentally transformation would be... I get more sensitive and emotional. ee! boringlahh! janji x sukee! if dulu I always take something easily but now seriously! x seronokkk! sbb mudah terasa even small stuff! to be honest, I'm just 21 going on 22! hope it's normal..please say those are normal! or maybe I am out-of norm!I prefer the robot me! rather than human with full of emotion. it's torturing and makes you think negatively (ya,about something particularly)

btw I really hate abg yang buat air kat cafe. I am not fussy, but I wish nextime I would stand up for myself. ade ke saye mintak nescafe ais dia buat teh ais. I just realize after i taste it. it's not even 1st time. before this I request for teh o limau. he gave teh o. Because I suke byr awl br ambil air, so maksudnye I pay more..la kan. teh tarik and teh o are cheaper than ape saye mintak. bukan nak sound cocky..but hey! every penny counts! stup*dnye! arahan tak dengar, buat kerja x fokus! u make me tanggung cost some more dah la saye x suka teh tarik and teh o! tu la..prasan hensem lagi!

I know berdosa mengata org and dia tak tau, but u know..as long as I didnt mention sape, xpe la.. x mengaibkan dia pun. and if sebut pun..bukan org knal . one day if die buat hal lagi, I would say this straight to his face..abg cafe, jgn asyik nak prasan hensem je,tp kja awk hampeh! abiskan duet aku je! and tekak aku jge!bye! tgk kan da kate..i am so sensitive..I need to have the old me back..syifa dulu meh la masuk balik!

okie, da ngntukk..nak tdo! BYE BYE BLACKSHIP!

LIVELY ALIVE!

2010-04-18T07:29:00.011+08:00

Teehee..forget the controversial title, it was really awesome to get myself out after quite some stressful time facing finals (paper), the magnificent thesis and penyakit baru to deal with [insomnia]..what a combo freak!

Thanks macik (Felly) for sudi bringing me out semalam! best la kuar ngn awk! muaahhh!!!

Yesterday's Tentatif:

Location:Midvalleywood

Time lenght:4 something-9 something (pm)
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3.30pm::felly fetched me at BTS KTM station

4.30pm-almost 5pm:: went to job exhibition (MCTF)

5pm::watching when in Rome

7.30pm::chillex/chit-chat/eating @ Delifrance

9something PM::bergerak Ke UM

10 something PM::macik felly send me back to UKM. thanks a lot dearie!

Verdict-good to see her after awhile.. all about catching up and having fun! and kteorg byk pok pek/collect goodie bag je dari job-hunting kat MCTF tu. :D after that, we watched when in rome! seriously girls!(nak suruh guys but its too chickflick) tgk la cte tu, funnier than Made of honour/ Bridewars.. kteorg asyik gelak je selain mengeluarkan bunyi2 lain spt aaaww.. wow! fuhh..heee!Apart from that at the centre part of mid they set up a place for fashion show with a theme *Highway Fashion Show* we took some pic tp sadly tak terang sgt sbb tade dslr. what a bummer! but okie je..life must goes on..but the fashion show haven't started yet. im not sure either bila the show..so get yourself alert girrrrlsss!

then after eating, we camwhored and jlan2 for awhile and shooot ke UM to meet encik Mus. to return some stuffs back and lepaking. ye la after awhile kan. then after the pok pek session come to an end, macik felly return me home ke mana laie, UKM kat hati saya la. then zzzz (after tepon2 ngn mr. sarcastic) :P

so hope to see them on the 30th! as planned. here some shots taken, excited tgk the stage and the surroundings!

felly sgt excited with the sesungut!cutee!

konon2 kat milan tgk fashion show (tgn masuk dlm poket konon2 smart). BTW the stage! how cool is that kan?

macik nie adalah pic of the day! tahniah!

felly and I da buat new resolution 2010, nak tgk world cup. so girls out there..jom teman kteorg tgk jom! biu lepas ni makin byk topik boleh bincang biu! :P

okie la, tu saje..sekian and and and

thats a wrappp!!! cheerio!

IF I WERE A BOY

2010-04-17T03:34:00.002+08:00

Actually 2 jam before saye terasa sgt lapa.. but now x boleh tdo pulak lepas mkn. tak mungkin overloaded..tp mungkin juge..ape2 je lah..

bile online mcm nie, kepale yg bercelaru, mate yang kabur and kawan yg online utk dikacau x rmi..so merepek da datang dlm diri. tgh membelek2 google untuk search lyrics , tibe2 saye tertekan huruf A kuar la name this one sweet girl.. honestly bang, kak, adek.. if i were a boy.. this would be my princess..bukan saye LESs ke more ke apa.. cume i think.. i like her style.. even I am not a big fan of her..last song yg i know from her is of course matahari..sbb mama saye sgt suke tgk cte tersebut.

xsilap saye dulu rmbut die wane wani..now da jadi normal balik. I like it better mcm nie.. sweet! i like her teeth when she smiles and her eyes, they're shining! maybe die pki eye mo or mate pedih akibat lampu kuning kot.ape2 pun she's beautiful in my definition. But saye x suke masa die atas pentas tp saye puji the way die menari boleh beat saye la.. cume maybe too glamourous and diva not really my type of girl. hee :)

how many female can really pull this hair off? saye x paatt muke saye square!

okie agnes monica.. here is your best shot! and i like you so much! selamat study ya! (currently she pursuing her studies in political sc kot)

honestly this pic biase je kan, but i like ordinary people :) she's so sweet..and cara dia senyum mengingatkan saye kepada my dearest cuzen, adek nad!

SUNSWEET

2010-04-16T18:21:00.000+08:00

Well you are the one that lies close to me

Whispers hello, I miss you quite teribbly

I fell in love, in love with you suddenly

Now there's no place I could be

but here in your arms

Well you are the one that lies close to me

Whispers hello, I miss you, I miss you

I fell in love, in love with you suddenly

Now there's no place I could be

but here in your arms

STRESSFUL PAPER EVER

2010-04-15T22:13:00.005+08:00

I never feel this hard, today would be the hardest and ugliest paper ever. Equal to oh-so-loser-me-paper!

The Hardest Variables- Time Constraint. I think lecturer should enhance the time lenght, at least for next batch. cuz, for 12 questions and got sub-questions which involve calculation and sketching curves.. nodding yeah, totally kena naik kan masa..otherwise mmg bungkus!at least 3 hours. not 2 H's and 15 M's!mmg very the very insufficient!

The Ugliest Variables-my condition in the exam hall! I was as usual pretty confident in the beginning and gradually deteriorates as the time slowly reach the ending. I was so freaking hungry. I barely think of any. I need energy to process and transmit infos from my brain to the paper. haihh..and one more! the announcer! Could you please do not make the announcement like thrice something??we heard you! just lose the mic boleh,

totally distracted my thinking digestion!

haihh..da la saye lapar td, sejuk lagi, nak pulas kepale @ idea lagi..honestly, this subject mmg da dicurse oleh our mantan batch before. but I never let it get in my way. cuz I'm so into this subject! Ohhhh options and future exchange market, I would never give up on u! eventhough I think u already jeopardize my pointer!

*Ahem* actually.. I feel a lil childish here,blame pretty much everything @ everyone while the real defendant is me :) plaintif is me juge.. 1 man show :) I left about 3 questions that cost quite big marks. damn sad when u leave the answer, but u know what the answers were.. I was too tired to think, to write, to calculate, all I could think of, was to get myself out and eat high-sugar-based food and I need Sun! (even that time already sunset)

tape la, hate the paper.. don't hate the subject.. 1 down, 2 more to go!!! sepak goal td tak dapat, so we wait for another goal to score.. make sure kalau dapat penalti, bagi masuk okie! go me!

so, say temporary full stop to exams story.. *ahem*

Recently,the term Energy really fascinates me. I used to watch A video on youtube called The Arrivals. that said Everything Is Energy, Energy Is Everything.. mase tu ada tunjuk some process which I am not sure what that was. if nak tau tgklah The Arrivals episode 1! hee..and because of that, I Change my blog title... TeeHee!

oh kie, esok no paper. Time to proceed my thesis. Wish myself luck!

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APP.LE PI.E

Waving bye bye * spirit fingers! (haha, such a cheerleader wanna-be-NOT!)

FOR THE ONE WHO STOLE MY HEART, RAN SO FAR, THE CUPID COULDN'T CATCH HIM

2010-04-14T19:57:00.002+08:00

Tomorrow is my 1st paper for finals and before I dead my journey In UKM, InshaAllah. hish, I miss being a student. Even now, I can feel that I already miss being here. carry around the book.. discuss about presentation.. dying to finish up the assgmnt.. forget what I've studied and whining later on.. hee and many many more. but guess if I never leave this place, I will never ever grow up. I never mix around with people outside, never know what is the real condition..never know how to think in matured way, take something/ everything easily etc. cuz UKM is like my shield. whenever I didn't know where to go, I ll go to UKM. plus, kiteorg tak ada curfew. wallawalla! (ayt ini tibe2 mcm out of place)

humm.. esok luckily the paper will be started at 1530. so still got time. i got another 1 chapter and a half before I complete this subject. hope i manage to get it all done by tonight. cuz tomorrow im not gonna do any revision, otherwise my otak will stuck in traffic jam. thats me! not very last min person..but in the middle of it :P

the title is actually nothing has to do with this quickie..but it is simply cuz i miss him :) MR Piu2

EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON

2010-04-12T20:40:00.001+08:00

Again :) this is my fav quote whenever I face difficult situation such as farewell, lost, etc.

dear mama, I made up my mind, i ll go there. see you in a month mamiu! inshaAllah. I ll always miss you :) but i know im strong enough to go alone

dear my beloved Bro.. abg u will get well soon. Im sure of that.. inshaAllah. and kita boleh pergi pasar malam sama2 like we used to and even watch chinese movie together!

I love you both. both of you are my HARTA i always treasured.

Ya Allah, lend me your strenght to endure this..Thanks for the test U ve poured to me, all of em have make me grow stronger and tougher. I love YOU Ya Almighty!

LIFE IS MEANINGLESS ONCE AGAIN

2010-04-12T18:46:00.001+08:00

Tomorrow mama and abg will leave the town once again. count 4 months til we meet again :(

Life is dull and empty once again.

Now I know, what people means by U mean the whole world to me...

TODAY.. I FOUND OUT WHY...

2010-04-10T00:45:00.003+08:00

hari ini supposedly da janji nak study dengan mama and diri sendiri but I am in no mood for book but I did face(the)book. if u get what i mean. wink sikit!

tak tau la ape kne dgan mood harini. cuz i feel so excited and energized by one perasaan iaitu, perasaan utk kacau org lain.kacau here means, macam nak annoy org lain. malangnye some of my frens tak online. yang online pula tade mood utk dikacau.sape2 yg boring and nak kene kacau please tell me asap. i cant hold on any longer!syifa suke merepek btol!

oh oh..bye the way, mase tgh dlm toilet I mcm didatangi satu pedoman..eh eh bukan2...maybe lebih tepat, insight kot. doesn't matter..sbb my bahasa and english mmg x pernah ikot skema kementerian pelajaran Msia.

lupe kan itu, tgk apa yg I mention just now,pernah x..korang buat mcm nie agaknye eh

some WHY's and WHAT's ( a-big no-no food for me) :

1. I always refuse to eat french fries esp. MCD punye. when people asked me why don't eat?, I ll say, sorry x suke. but actually saye pentipu tegar! I can eat that junk the whole night. I refuse to eat sbb once i eat fries, my hands and mouth cannot stop functioning. i get addicted to something very-very-very easily,nak nak junkies. mcm apple pie tape addicted cuz it contains nutrition and (high) in calories too. ahaks! otherwise, eating fries like crazy will only get u cancer. so limit kan consumption okie?

2. secondly! i hate ice cream! always avoid to eat em.. cuz once i eat akan jadi mcm no 1 juga.. i will eat that the whole day and i can, believe me! i wont feel muak pun. betapa hebatnya penangan ice cream. mungkin sistem kekebalan terhadap makanan2 manis saye sgt rendah. cuz I have a sweet tooth and it never comes loose! so do not offer me an ice cream :( tapi kek boleh! and the pastries family! egg tart! senyum luas2! :P

3. popcorn! popcorn..yes you! very high in calories, but almost zero nutrition. sbb dia sweet but processed food. tu yg x elok. nak2 u makan masa tgk wayang. mak aih..I penah mkn popcorn dengan my piu2..and I can't stop eating that! penat je berpuasa popcorn sekian lama..tgk2 pecah juga sbb piu2..haih..hang jaga naaaa! so makanlah jagung sebenar kat pasar malam. murah yet nutritious! -and membantu usahawan kecil2an juge :D

4. Satay! mase kcik satay was in my top list. tahniah sbb tercalon. but as I grow up.. i know x elok mkn satay cuz i'm allergic to *peanut* sauce,pity me cuz i ada sinus so keluarga nuts x boleh, ayam pun actly x boleh but belasah je sbb i aint a vegan. lagi satu sbb my belly compartment sgt besar. I'm not gonna eat 10 cucuk and happily full. it takes wayy more than that. so drpd u makan 1 stick satay yang ada carbon and berkalori 100 lebih baik mkan real food. mcm nasi goreng cina or bihun sup (janji dua2 food nie not my everyday food-saye x mkn tawar.ahaks),but ia mengenyangkan and menyihatkan.and for health sake, mkn satay msti makan skli ngn cucumber okie!

tu je for tonight..actually there are tons of lie I've already poured just to stop people from questioning my action/reaction about something, and in this case food la kan. everything happen for a reason dude. but somehow to elaborate the reason sgt panjang. so kene cut it short terjadi lah lie. Dlm konteks ni, I hope ia tidak memudaratkan sesiapa. sbb tipu yang memudaratkan kemaslahatan org lain adalah dosa. even tipu itself pun da dosa kan. sorry folks.lagi satu i might call this action as being defensive. being defensive ain't a crime? akta tak ada pun :P hehe

btw maybe some people would say that im a health freak..actually sometimes la. according to food. kalau rasa x berbaloi makan, i wont eat. sbb food to me, really a big fat matter. eat is indulging bg saye. syarat utk masuk perut saye is as simple as satisfying :)

thats all.

thats y:::::

I still eat apple pie (pastries) like everday and no kidding, cakes cuz i'm crazy for em, irresistable burger, addictive Extreme mocha blended, yummy cream puff, donut yang gebu, and ada lagi guilty pleasure punya food. to be honest my daily food intake can be catogarized as unhealthy.one of my resolution in the next 2 years is makan proper meal. so..he he ..still got time!heee~

okie mcm da pjg sanggat je.. kne ready to sign and kiss off! muacks!

salam

nitey!

TIME FLIES, WHY CAN U JUST STAY?

2010-04-07T22:54:00.001+08:00

love/ befriend with someone because of who they are and not what they have :)

no one will get hurt then.

that makes world a better place to live in

hye againn!!! actually terpanggil untuk tulis blog lagi selepas membaca blog my sweet fren, Felly..about true fren. (macik awk telah inspire saye laa)

actually im gonna write something very general. cuz, hmm.. general is the best to conclude every situation without any harm.

I used to be in one position when i feel used, losing my bestfren/frens/morethanfrens, using someone (but I give something as a token of appreciation),backstabbed, backstab attempt but tak jadi because takut karma and x sampai hati,kwn tukar plan saat2 akhir and i was the one yang tukar..etc.. bila dirumuskan balik.. none of em..I was plan to do or to be.. now all those things have tought and create/mould who i am today, what i believe in, who i am going to put my faith into, what characteristic i should avoid and blah blah. Ive learnt and forget a lot. but some really leave footprints on my heart. so does friends. the real one remains in my mind and heart for good. the acid and parasit ones.. will be a lesson to learn.

appreciate your time with family/frens/loveones-sometimes they might stay, some just dissapear by time and space

i experience both :)

somehow i just miss em

SHE WOKE ME UP DAILY, DON'T NEED NO STARBUCKS ^^

2010-04-07T21:58:00.002+08:00

LISTEN TO HIS BABY-ISH VOICE CAN MAKES ME SMILE THE WHOLE DAY :)

Those spoken words (not literally spoken la) are the sweetest :)

mcm mana nak ckp, i think i got head over heels kepada justin bieber, i know, very-out-dated me! but susahla nak suke another blonde guy after aaron carter back when i was 13. but when i heard his song ( baby feat ludacris) i think i can forget my 1st blonde guy. hishh! sorry terpaksa meluahkan my crush towards him kat sini! my mom said, stop crapping adek! haha tp tak ada la crap kan..mama ckp jgn merepek..heee!

typically me! i thought those days akan gone once i grow up. my gosh bukan grow lagi. i think our age 7 years differ kot! haha! wish nadhirah were here. dpt la merepek same2! soorry piu!!! ni main2 je..jap lagi ilang la nie ..hehe

but again . i'd like to stress on some words yang really make me go auuu.. aaa.. heeee!! (in the song *baby*)

'And we would never ever, ever be apart' -ini very cute!!!

'I'll buy you anything'- this is very p.diddy-ish!
'I'll buy you any ring'

'Cause I'm in pieces'- no verdict just a reply! okayy justin! teee~
'Baby fix me'

'We're just friends,' -what game is this?? cuz i kinda like it! :P
'What are you sayin''?

'You know you love me'
'I know you care'- i just love the confidence! okie tipuu.. saye sukaaa sbb justin yang ckp!!

my heart can't stop pounding!!!! justin!

x kisahh kne juga tgk lagi satuu gmbr dieeee

heee! gmbar nie x boleh tdo mlm okie!justin...kak syifa suke sgtt!

WASN'T INBORN CREATIVE

2010-04-05T00:38:00.001+08:00

haihh..this would be my royally 5th time changing my blog's template.

because I don't feel satisfied with the combination.. colours and picture and font and mcm2 lagi..

knape kwn2 saye punya blog cantik :( knape susah nak jadi kreatif nie..

its like my right brain, doesnt functioning at all :(

yg kali nie pon x cantik.. kne hire web-builder kot pasni ..

?????

waving off! buhbyes!

THE SEXIEST MARTIAL ARTS ever (at least to me!) ^.^

2010-04-04T17:59:00.001+08:00

verdict: okie..begin to like herrr!! so hot yet tough pulakk!! *peluh2*

bye byesss katy perry and her squad!

bonus point: nak blaja menari camnie

acknowledgement: credit to syera for the tips ..winking*

CAN WE START ALL OVER AGAIN?LIKE YEAH..BACK AT 1..PLEASE?

2010-04-01T23:56:00.003+08:00

Okie, dengan officiallynye I am no longer the hotdog seller. I thought today would be my last day, but again.. it has been cancelled. due to some mysterious reason ..haish..miss nak jual2! direct selling mmg annoying but best giler once u ve tried.

Sbnrnye mlm nie nak nag about my thesis. I semakin confuse la.. between mundel-fleming approach or absorption approach? mls nye nak buat research.. due date is just around the corner. honestly..my heart cannot stop pumping (alhamdullillah) but the speed..is quite..hmm.. SPEEDY! menyesal nak mam mam buat about fiscal financing punya hubungan dengan foreign exchange nie. x seronok..sanggat!

And today, I also have giving up. I'm gonna take TL form and bagi mr beloved Prof mansor to sign and approved my kelewatan to submit the thesis. sungguh menyampahkan! white flag,white flag... I hate this term..nape hang wujud?

So tomorrow I have to be very studious in order to finish suku thesis.. maybe re-edit some part before leaving UKM. sbb next week da study leave! maybe going back home but akan frequently balik UKM.

btw tadi I watched theatre with miss DD :) it was fine.. love the confidence! bagus lah 1st and 2nd year nie! way to go!

that pretty much about today and tonight. tomorrow is another story to be told :)

HNL's OFF!

HYE SORRY GANGGU, RM 2 JE 1..

2010-03-31T19:20:00.004+08:00

Today I went to the interview by KWSP , they came to UKM, so it such an honour :) nothing much to write down about the interview here. I think I was mediocre and as usual, talk like a speed train and too much of body gestures. yeah typical me! But whats vital is I know and aware of what I said just now. x de la mcm salu..menonong je cakap laju2 sampai lupa nak pk..KWSP sgt menarik actually. too many too offer, from health until education benefit :) way to go laahh!

Today i don't have to sell hotdogs too. i thought i would be happy and i could relax lebih masa..but it is totally the other way around. sorta missing it.. i wanna carry the heavy apa-ntah nama yg gantung kat leher stuffed with 12 hotdogs and hunt for customers.. from door to door.. pengalaman pahit mcm gula2 pops, mula2 xsedap lama2 menjadi manis.. when i remember what have i done these past 2 days, I'm gonna smile and hi hi sorg2

mcm poyo je asyik cte pasal hotdog kan... org lain pun kja..but u know, org 1st time kja mmg kecoh..kalau boleh dia nak cta 24 hours pengalaman kja dia kat org. tak tau apa motif syifa nie..haha..no its all because i really love sharing. Especially my pass experience. what i feel, what did i do, how i ve been.. mcm2 lagi. thats y i do blogging. sbb if nak release book, i am nobody in writing world, capital pun tade nak invest. ye la kan, mane pnah dpt anugerah nobel pulak..so nobody la camtu! :P

Erin and I on our very 1st day :)

still naive and happy! (awl2 kan smgt)

I ve learned a lot from this job..yeah, just selling hotdogs! but it teaches me something that i hope i ll live with that principles forever~amin

thanks for the opportunity!

HNL's OFF! tonight's gonna be dull..haha

TAG BY FELLY DARLING :)

2010-03-30T16:49:00.002+08:00

1. siapakah diri anda di rumah?

anak bongsu. saya ada sorg abg je. according to mama saya nie ada penyakit intangible stubborness. maksudnya rebellious but tak tunjuk :) saya lebih x manja dr abg saya. x caya tanya abg saya :)

2. siapakah diri anda di samping rakan?

Rmi cakap pasal suara saya yg stop growing nie..sorg yg kelam kabut and cakap laju2

3. 5 bende yang anda idamkan tetapi belom tercapai?

1. jadi policy maker (konon2 je nie)
2. lepas jd policy maker, nak bagi mama and abg apa shj dorg nak (insyaallah)
3. nak siapkan thesis.tlglah siap..saya x nak TL
4. Nak jadi competent driver sbb saya tak nak susahkan org lagi :(
5. kahwin dengan jodoh saya. insyaallah

4. siapakah nama pasangan anda?

Mr MCmuizz zainuddin:P

5. Ceritakan 5 perkara yang paling anda suka tentang pasangan anda.

1.sorg yang caring
2.suka ckp bnda yang x romantik..
3.suka bagi nasihat.kwn2 dia pun stuju
4.dia sorg yg malas nak gado.ni yang sronok!
5.he let me being myself and x jelik dengan perbuatan saya

6. bila tarikh anda couple?

11 august 2008

7. apakah kenangan pahit anda bersama pasangan anda?

yg paling teruk pun sesat jalan bersama2 sbb that time i was being confident and end up gado skejap

8. lagu tema cinta anda.

tak ada lagu tema tp ada certain song mengingatkan saya kat budak gmok tu
-I wanna -AAR
-7 Things-miley (dun ask!) hee
-heatbreaker -WILL.I.AM (lagu ni asyik ada je masa jumpa si dia)
-sleeping with a broken heart- alicia keys (reason rujuk di atas)

byk sanggat! nati ngntuk pulak nak list sume

9. apa perubahan yang anda ingin lihat dari pasangan anda?

tdo awl sbb x elok tdo lambt2..and he knows the other 1

10. Tag 10 rakan anda yang lain.

haha..okie ini rmi sgt..sapa2 nak jwb boleh jwb.muacks!

SELLING HOTDOGS AIN'T EASY :(

2010-03-30T08:25:00.001+08:00

It may be not be a classy job of all, But ..to gain experience and bulding up confidence, I think this could be a pre-training. To be honest it ain't easy, at all! Especially when u have to sell em door to door! went up and down the stairs really enhance my backpain that i already had few days back.

To knock the door and bagi salam to every room with the same voice.. could caused sorethroat and yet, to pursuade em to buy the dogs with the same dialogue.. I must be a tape-recorder! and plus, to carry all the hotdogs with ur shoulder (it's like a bag that u put on the neck or shoulder) must be whacky! plus yesterday was raining..not to mention, HEAVILY :( sigh.. Thats what Erin and I did Smlm, another :( pleaseee...

The hotdogs were all wet and we had to wipe em off and forgot pulak! we had to bagi flyers too! my gosh..can u imagine a person carry and do all those things! I can..sbb kna buat kan. tp best jugee sbb we managed to sell a lot! and make lotsa Ringgit for the boss and co. we got compliments too! yeehoo! nasibaik sell in UKM je..if not i can die mehh! we menjual at our 1st target iaitu, pendeta zaba college :) kolej Zaba is like China.. big in size and population ^^.. sila penetrate..like now!

Yesterday was my very 1st day and 1st time of direct selling. Hope today would be much much better.. and easier! 3 days more to go~~dewhsdewh..btw, thanks to all customer especially for the smile. my tiredness was consuming up by the smile and good treatment they gave. so the lesson here, (for me) jgn masam2 and cakap kasar2 with org ketuk pintu untuk jual. they wont harm, they just wanna sell :)

another signing off from HNL!

WEEKENDS AT HOME

2010-03-30T07:58:00.002+08:00

Weekends quiet okie. cuz mama and abg are here. so Kinda feel celebrated. So Sabtu we went to Times square. Abg got himself an X-box. Mama and i just waited in the car. the day was freaking hot..Malaysia kan panas and lembap spjg tahun..so tape2. kinda enjoy it lagipun ^wink-wink^

after all ready, abg bought his stuff already we went back and drop-by to mamak for lunch.mcm biasa ritual Msian kan.. kemudian I bought a sandle for class-usage. x berapa cantik..but boleh terima la..

it is something like this:

on ahad we went to rumah mak akak at bangi, bukit putra or something sounds like that. she just renovated her house and semi-siap masa kteorg datang tu. one thing that really captured my attention and kinda love it is....

ada big mirror berdekatan the living room. boleh jadi bilik latihan menari okie!

she served us with a very nice and pekat coffee and cekodok..yams!

and after isi perut, we all went for a semi-heavy dinner outside.cant recall apa nama cafe itu.but the satay sgt best! and the naan too!

late at that night, I got myself contented with mama and abg, mak noni and abg zharif yang officially 24 years old smlm! we've grown up so much! happy birth-birthday again bang jerip! and yes, contented with these pair of pair of crocs! haha double pair!Thanks MN! tons of liking it!

and then I was safely returned to UKM cuz on monday i got a class @ Final class of this sem. honestly graduation really frightened me out! shaaattt!

HNL's signing off :)